dream a lil dream..

2007-04-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

上个星期，我起笔了。。可惜，终究还是无法完成。

这封信，有始却无终。注定的。

太累了。

可能或许有一天，会有机会，把内容公诸于世。但有所谓吗。。

没了。

2007-02-01T08:27:00.000+08:00

its early in the morning n suddenly im wondering why in the world im not slping at home but instead blogging haha. answer being im at work n chris isnt in so he hasn koped my com haha. but anyway he jus sent me an sms to ask me to produce some docs fer him. haha. how exciting :p

anyway. theres dance prac tonight. quite an exciting prospect i must say..meeting zhu to (maybe) further our choreography haha. dance on tues was quite funny cox we taught 4 eight counts and its jus. hehe. funny : ) i think my dancers always make the week surprisingly happy haha. somehow theres the magic bout them. ppl like kang kang who scares me but is (actually) an angel haha. im surprised i said that. ok but then i think shes 身在福中不知福. hahaha. someones alrdy the perfect man haha. hai you shen me hao complain de rgt? well. but yao qiu gao. ye bu shi bu hao hahha!

and then theres zhu. she looks like she came out of a war zone the other day cox she had ot n was rushing down. poor fated. must jian chi! then when we were teachin every two secs there will b the. er. xin u doing that ah. im doing this eh. then we will think. n change ahahha. quite funny. we're not the von kind who will diao hao then teach.. not too good la. abit scary haha. we'll see what happens today! haha.

n se! whos so ke ai. goodness she brings alot of laughter into prac! thank goodness theres her : D n shes getting flexer n flexer i completely agree with kangkang. tts a veh good thing. n its fine if its a single pirouette now haha. it will soon be two. if u can ban hou tui last yr. anythings possible hahaha.

(happy bday char i hope u liked the card!)

The movie happy birthday has a veh striking progression. interesting n ol romantic haha.

its true. its nice to have someone looking out for u.

给城市的情书：

只是当时我们都不知道其实自己要些什么。晴天会想起说过自己多爱雨天，雨天回想起晴天你灿烂的笑容。都无所谓。我们依旧在编织自己最美丽的梦，三心二意也是在所难免的。是吗？

也未必。

有个朋友说过，感情的事他报以一生一世的期望，所以也因此悬在投入或退后的决定。其实觉得在现代爱情故事的城市里这样的人并不是绝种了。只不过，可能是坚持得太短罢了。有个固定的避风港并不错，谁都想有属于自己的情歌。

-xin

2007-01-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

today. wanling told me tt jacky has a new album titled 好久不见.
to all my friends out there. 真的.. 好久不见了..hope all of u are doing jus fine..
those in army stay strong stay happy stay healthy :D
those at work stay bubbly n cheerful.

to my special wenli. i love n respect u fer ur maturity. fer u being u. all along. uve always been the heart person. but its been so head this time. it may not b the happiest decision. but uve seen it to be rgt. n i want u to noe tt. no matter what it is. ill walk with u every step of our way. thru every sunrise n sunset :)

my buddy said. 两个人有缘就是有缘.没有多久都会散. well i agree. like the two of us. ye suan you yuan le. haha. yea. ye suan le. its interesting.

im tryin to stick two parts of two songs tog.its impossible. n driving me crazy haha. tu xie.cant take it la. n im scared kang kang beat me into pulp.

abit incoherent. works getting on track. busier. funner. less time to slp. n getting to work by bus. is mad hahahah!

ok i shall try to change the pitch of my yin yue><

goodnight.

你怎么会是我的幸福
我竟如此的盲目
所有认真守住的坚持
你到底在不在乎
你怎么会是我的幸福
我竟苦苦的追逐
所有和你有关的错误
我从现在开始背负

n i love u too.
-xin

2007-01-17T13:49:00.000+08:00

hellos.. at work now but decided to drop a short post cox otherwise cobwebs will grow on my blog again.. considering tt i dun really go online much (or at all) nowadays hahaha.

yester my darling chinese dancers had a prac session tog. our first of the year and it was really quite hilarious. first we had kang kang who came in a flurry n started to complain n talk at a volume such tt the entire canteen could hear her hahaha. but i pity her feet n those uncomfortable shoes that shes stuck in haha. hopefully her shoes morph to fit her toes better><

then we had char who wasnt too pleased with the pay she gets. of cox la. who will be haha. then se's job is nice relaxing n she gets buffet lunches haha. fated is forced to go lunch n go home by her boss. im jus like that. huiqing jus came back from laos n is quite happy being free hahaha. linettes at gleneagles. so with everyone everywhere. jus imagine the amt of talking n yakking n complaining n everythin we did. its really veh funny. n i love them : ) i love my kumpung of highly flex dancers hahaha.

yes n when we finally started dancing it was more of stretching muscles that havent been stretched in like. 6 months haha. feels veh shuang even though its sore hahaha. ok no steps could b taught cox fated n i haven came up with anythin>< but nvm we will soon. i think haha. if not kang kang will chop us..

daddys coming back from china today. he jus went chengdu with us on holiday now he went again>< oh well. how lucky lor. the food/fruits/scenary r all veh good. n like. even the weather is quite good. except the fog tt id otherwise tolerable also la haha. which means i shall go to the airport later to walk around n wait fer his flight to arrive. bravoo :) airport trips are interesting cox u see so many ppl comin n so many ppl going. n its an interesting feeling seeing how ppl are received. n how they say goodbye. 其实离别未必要惆怅, 因为短暂的分离才会渴望重遇.

想惦记你.

next week's work will b less reading n more moving around. oh well. 随遇而安 :D

ok. i better go now haha. take care everyone. esp those in tekong n those going haha.
不怨不悔难有相同的感情给谁
对与不对由时间体会
谁不是这样以为骗自己忘了无所谓
却事与愿违往事轻扣我心扉

午夜梦迴怕景物憔悴
怎能不这样以为没有你尝遍痛苦的滋味
是我太沉醉让思念步步相随

我用情付諸流水爱比不爱可悲
听山盟海誓曾经说的字字都珍貴

n i love u too.
~xin

2007-01-07T02:05:00.000+08:00

managed to get a kid to tuition. thank u charms! haha. sec 4 class gathering was super duper fun hahaha. n turnout was good. steph n jac n chinyee came which is reallly good.

life feels like a rush. but its a nice rush i hope.

yi ran hai shi peng you.

xie gei zi ji de qing shu. shi xie gei wo du de ma?

xi guan. zhao yi ge tong lei?

雨后的城市寂寞又狼狈
路边的座位它空着在等谁
我拉住时间它却不理会
有没有别人跟我一样很想被安慰

风停了又吹我忽然想起谁
天亮了又黑我过了好几岁
心暖了又灰
世界有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类
爱收了又给我们都不太完美
梦作了又碎我们有几次机会

happy weekend.

love,
~xin

2007-01-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

heyyyyy! wo hui lai le haha. after leaving this space empty fer so long. its feels odd yet strangely comforting to b back here again. hua bu duo shuo. 2006 has officially pulled to a stop n 2007 is starting. not with a bang but otherwise peacefully. n thats some of us jus want nowadays. yan juan zhao kuai gan. zhi qiu. wu jing wu xian. haha. sounds so mei zhi qi. well. its time to recover. time to breathe.

wo fa xian. xing fu bu dan yao zheng qu. hai xu tian shi. di li. ren he. dui de ren zai cuo de shi jian huo shi cuo de ren zai dui de shi jian. ni hui xuan shui.

ke neng de xing fu wo qing shou feng huan.

how interesting. you ren shuo shi qu le cai zhi dao you duo zhong yao. wo shou shi qu le cai fa xian wu yuan yong you. cai ling wu xin li suo yao.

time to knock off. this yr. will b a better yr. zhu fu mei yi ge ren.

这很难纵然也觉得寂寞
一个人的生活回头看也走了一大段
关于爱是夜里不小心会想起
当自己跟自己的对话还没答案
我不怕从前留的伤口记得爱的美好

所以别轻易把爱点燃
我不要爱了再说好聚好散
留着退路的爱情是一种欺瞒我不希罕
一旦我再次把爱点燃
请让我有天长地久的打算

love
~xin.

2006-07-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

never had such nice weather in such a long time whhhheeeeeee. super happy hahah. its a pretty good conclusion to a pretty nice week. haha. my bros friends are coming over in a moment to start their popcorn munching. gossiping. tv watching. stint before finals start. mayb i shall watch haha. its not tt late afterall.. anyway!

have a nice week everyone :Dhaha. smile smile smile. its nice being like a retiree. cox u can go home everyday after sch n it actually feels late when u go home at 3 or somethin hhhahaha. okok. wo lao le! haha.

zhi yao ni guo de bi wo hao:)

daddy bought back peaches from chengdu on fri.omg they r e nicest sweetest juiciest peaches ive had since my days in xiamen when we can buy them when they r perfectly ripe hahaha. tai hao le. jiu xiang xiao hai bei cong yi yang hahah.

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-07-09T01:28:00.000+08:00

shouldve said so earlier. shldve. really shldve. ye xu wo yao de bu shi ni neng gei de. dan ying wei fang bu xia ni dui wo de hao. cai hui tuo. i suppose. mei xiang na qi guo jiu bu bi fang shou.zhi bu guo. bu dong zhen me shuo chu kou.

zuo de tai jue le.

lei le. duo zuo jiu duo cuo. bu ru bu zuo. jiu mei de cuo. ive tried my best. but it never seems enough. ru guo wo zuo bu dao ni yao de. dui bu qi. wo zhen de bu shi gu yi de.

on hindsight. im glad. ying gai fa sheng de zhong jiu hui fa sheng. er bu ying gai de. jiu shi bu neng fa sheng.

wo cai fa xian. yi qie dou shi hou zhi hou jue. cai fa xian. ni ye yi yang. cai fa xian. wo shu bu qi. ye wan bu qi. cai fa xian. xin li yi jing.

bu guan zhen me yang. hai shi dui bu qi. sry. fer not decidin. not saying. ke neng xian zai yi jing wu suo wei. dan shi ta ceng jin mattered.

一切有你的感动
一切已太朦胧
一切已不能解释
理解这一切
像是心底下过了一场雪
我们的距离
原来一直是天和地
试过了一切
结局依然是抱歉
如果说一切
只是让人疲倦
我们可不可以

zui hou wo fa jue. wo yao de. shi neng pei wo zuo guo shui yue de. er bu shi yi ge ren de tian chang di jiu. cai fa jue. wo yao de. shi wo ai de. zui hou zhi dao. ni dui wo de hao. dou cuo le. xie xie ni de cuo ai. bu guo. hai shi dui bu qi.

shii- i love u!n m so happy fer u hahah.
fated- loveu.
boss-hahahha. happy dling songs.
buddy- oh my son why are U so excited at findin my blog hhahahha.jiayou w grad!hugs.

this entry is so chinese goodness. some things sound less cutting in chinese i suppose. haha. n ill still b here fer u:D jus like u always have.

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-06-09T20:53:00.000+08:00

its a friday n half the worlds prob waiting fer world cup to start. u noe.the opening ceremony is somethin to look forward to haha. i heard from bro tt the song fer world cup this yr is quite nice but i haven heard it fer myself. isit some piece by lang lang?ok actually i dun suppose anyone will b veh urm. like. music inclined with regards to world cup theme. anyway!! i haf no fav team in mind. jus hope tt we get to see beautiful n fair play : D which we will. haha. wun we.

takin a slight respite now. spent the day in jurong library n i jus totally froze there haha. its like. arctic or somethin. they r terribly generous with the air conditioning. which i wouldn b complainin about really. jus tt its my own problem tt i dint bring my sweater in my haste to run out of e house today. n to top it all off it sorta rained on n off the whole day today hahaha.

tt was quite uninspiring haha. n veh random. im waiting fer the council inves fotos to upload now (yes i noe i noe. veh long veh late liao hahahaha) but nvm. at least its going rgt? haha.

anyway. in more typical fashiion. heres a lil shoutout to a veh special person ahha. break a leg to you whos slogging away in the forest rgt now. jiayou!

oh no. im like a classmate. we're both initiativeless hahaha. rgt. jus tt ur in more trouble than im hahah!

只有受过伤的人才懂得去疼爱别人. 才有资格说了解.可能不是很般配. 但也无所谓.曾经在怀里感受那份温暖.已经不错了.或许.梦到一半比较美.

像空气给我拥抱.但我看不到.所以以为不重要.对我的好.怎么会失去才知道.才知道你付出了多少.

应该更少离别
应该更常拥抱
应该更快发现
你有寂寞的笑
应该更多保护
应该频频回顾
应该更早想到
是我让你孤独

tc everyone! jiayou w mugging.

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-06-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

yayy! completed sats muahahaha.n went fer ms tehs wedding today. every bride looks perfect on their weddin day hahha. lingzi serene n i appeared just in time to hear mr wan serenading mrs wan with flying without wings haha. veh nice. veh. touching. a wedding is a union n its a lifetime commitment : ) how nice it will b if i can somehow see them. 50 yrs down e road or somethin n see them happy tgt : D haha.

which reminds me. i went to hospital alot recently fer whatever reasons there may be.n it warms me when i c couples who can b tog n tc of each other even when they aren i the happiest situations. its e couple who can still hold hands when they both haf potbellies n greying hair. so sweet. xi guan bi ci de xi guan ye shi yi zhong ai.yi bei zi zou zai yi qi jiu shi fu qi. mayb tts why they say. wan nian xiu de tong chuan zhen:D

ok. enough bout my musings. haha. actually there isnt much to update bout. just tt. im feelin more sure.hahh.or mayb im just not thinkin bout it. zai yi qi kai xin jiu ok le.

xie xie ni teng wo:)
再没有什么可以诉说
自从跟随风尘而沦落
假戏真做又有何不妥
舞榭歌台即使是场梦
也无需去捅破
青楼满座
只有风雨声在门外沉默
毛笔已蘸上了墨
正慢慢朝着宣纸写着什么
含苞欲放的花朵
在一阵往昔过后悄悄折落
谁能读懂的落寞
烛光也微弱
映红了夜色

i realise somethin. i nv ever take initiatives. haha.its my xing ge.
眼神最让我心安温暖肩膀最让我心安没有你我不太习惯.
im looking forward to my grad com coming down on mon : D mahjong hahahha.

n i love you too.
-xin

2006-05-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

i dunno..sometimes it seems like im singlehandedly ruining it fer myself. does it. im not sure.
its hard to say whats too nice. mayb tts true. but im guilty. i feel bad. fer not being as nice. i dunno.i guess. its not up to me to choose. but i wish. i had a choice.

someone once told me. if i had a choice. i wldn haf.
but. this isnt about choices. its not bout choosing.
its bout what u end up with.
what ur heart decides.
sry i said some stuff when i dint know.
it cut.

better. better do somethin bout it.

wes-jiayou n mug hard!
char-wel done on a beautiful perf:)
everyone-enjoy hols:)

你曾说承诺如果给不起
不是真心而是更珍惜
你对爱的定义
曾让我如此着迷
你又说感情不能太小心
没有不甘心
得失不在手里
如今不发一言离去
这才明白
你想暗示的结局

dui bu qi. wo bu xiang hao ju hao san. dui bu qi. wo mei you da an. dui bu qi. tai zi si.

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-05-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

its a sunday again. this time its time to say goodbye to councilwork. but it seems. we wun ever say gdbye to council. haha.25ths simply the best.better than all e rest:D

its been such an eventful week. so many ups n downs. so many emotional moments. so many heartbreaks and so many heartfelt thank yous.

sometimes.its best to b ignorant. but then again.its not good overall. cox its temporary only. i dunno.what do u think.bie xiang tai duo. i dun mean any particular event. i jus thought. mayb i cld do more.so den mayb it wldn hurt so much. i see through it. cox mayb its easy to see thru. i dunno. just cant hide it. dun hide it.not when ill see thru it.

fer someone who has given so much.n doesn expect anythin in return
who stood by every single day thru every single hour
who worried silently
who wholeheartedly protects
who hides things to protect
who promises n never goes back
who is happy enough to sit afar and watch
who wants to see u happy
what do u do fer someone like tt.

ill give it good thought. to try n make things better.

春花和秋月一样都是最好
才知道天下无双多难找
太多的温柔怀抱
只有你的依靠
愿你所有烦恼云散烟消

to say im confused is worng. but im still at a lost.

请允许我尘埃落定用沉默埋葬了过去
满身风雨我从海上来才隐居在这沙漠里
该隐瞒的事总清晰千言万语只能无语
爱是天时地利的迷信喔原来你也在这里
啊哪一个人是不是只存在梦境里
为什么我用尽全身力气
却换来半生回忆
若不是你渴望眼睛若不是我救赎心情
在千山万水人海相遇喔原来你也在这里

xi wang wo neng.

a long wk ahead! jiayou eveyrone

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-05-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

dad came back today. he went to xiamen where i stayed fer 3yrs when i was young. so when he ame back all of us were chasing him fer "is this stil there.." "is that still there.." haha. apparently my pri sch is still there. n so is my nursery. n so is where we used to stay. but my fav eatery has moved:( n alot of other stuff changed too. e wet market we used to go to has been chopped in half n e other half moved somewhere else. haha.anywayy. i doubt ull b really interested in where all these old places r n what not.

likeqin has a superb voice. crystal clear n so rich. wows me everytime i hear him sing (like now haha)

i dunno why i suddenly felt like blogging.well well. u noe. thks fer giving me the courage. thks fer everythin uve done fer me onstage n offstage. i suddenly felt like sayign it. thou we were rushign thru every step cox of natural restrictions imposed on us. im glad we managed to stay fated. haha. loveu.

n i wanna remind u. when u asked how many yous were u. u were all of them :) grins.

有谁和谁走过灯火一下下闪灿
只有老房子记得这些人的承诺
听过谁和谁的呼吸像潮起潮落
有某某的声音一句句的隐没
窗薿长了耳朵说不定录下来拿去广播
在我和某某之前这里是谁的窝
有谁比谁快活谁为谁而难过
留下多少指纹说不定做过一样的动作
我坐在这里看着时间溜过
我的心会不会在这里停泊
站在这里会不会立地成佛
躺在这里会否夜长梦多

goodnight world!

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-05-14T02:40:00.000+08:00

amarante 06 has finally come to an official ending (save fer e qing gong yan) n i shant say too much bout it herecox somehow. i haven sorted out my thoughts so i haf no idea what to say either.but i will. haha. when ive sorted it out.just one thing i must say.is tt ive never regretted it. i said it once last yr. ill say it again.i love what im doing SO much. im willing to go thru everythin. everytime. anytime.

there used to b stuff written here. it used to b a draft. but it remains unwritten now as far as im concerned.its not good to b not cryptic rgt.. i havent written here in super super long. n fer various reasons i havent.

yourebeautiful.yourperfect.butidunno.imayneverbewithu. budden again. if i nv said anythin. then im sure it cldn b the above. cox im a head person haha.

ok ill b going off fer piano ensem concert in awhile. actually a long while hahaa. lets see. this wkend has been quite slp filled fer me.which is goood n bad but nvm tts another story.

find somone whos willing to wait fer u. silently n always there. oh well.

原谅我已无力再坚强
请你相信实非我所想
如果真的令你有点沮丧
拿什么赔偿

yi bu dong ying wan dong. i haf no idea. if i cld say im sorry then it wldn b so hard. but thing is haha. i cant! wel. tts a good things in more ways than one. but a bad thing in a way. ahhhh.

你发如雪凄美了离别
我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁
爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪
我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月
我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑

its a long week ahead with all e rehearsals n dunno what>< but nvm it shldn b too bad.but id rather it b dance HAHA. i miss dancing oh no. i havent danced fer ONE wk.omg.faints.n i must up my muggin power.sigh. so unappetising. but nvm. i better make sure i start dancing soon soon soon.hehe. like nxt wk. but after which i will MAYB do somethin bout my cranky ankle which still hurts tilll now.gr.ahaha haf a nice sunday everyone!'

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-05-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

im going off in exactly 5 mins. but i just wanted to say. wei du ni bu ke qu dai. n fated. jiayou. we'll get thru this tgt. yi ding xing de.

因为你是我的药
疯狂世界的依靠
受多少煎熬
我依然能微笑
因为有你给我治疗
有你守住我心跳
我才感到被需要
看外面纷纷扰扰
寂寞人还真不少
可是我知道只有你的怀抱

thank u fer e flowers.
fer watchin over me
fer holdin my hand.
fer listenin.
fer dryin my tears.

nights.

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-04-29T01:56:00.000+08:00

its good to haf a rest once in a while. just sit n listen. its a comforting assuring voice. n well. its a nice ngt. thku.
i cld haf met fated. ugh. n now while im waiting fer fated to wrap up i shall dig up some nice lyrics to plonk here. today the 140 man strong council (mostly) went down fer pingpong match support n we won double gold : D ok raffles won : Dyayy. its times when they go from losin to draw to wrapping the set tt u feel so proud to b refflesian. cox we never say die :) so proud of mel n liaoying : D

怕你忧伤怕你哭
怕你孤单怕你糊涂
红尘千山万里路
我可以朝朝暮暮
给你一条我的路
你是我一生不停的脚步
让我走出一片天空
让你尽情飞舞
放心的追逐
爱是漫长的旅途梦有快乐梦有痛苦
悲欢离合人间路我可以缝缝补补
提着昨日种种千辛万苦
向明天换一些美满和幸福
爱你够不够多对你够不够好
可以要求不要不在乎
不愿让你看见我的伤处
是曾经无悔的风雨无阻
拥有够不够多梦得够不够好
可以追求不认输
well it seems to me tt all the ni n wo shld b swapped. but im touched enough.dao zui hou. hai shi ni feng yu wu zu.

u asked which u were u rgt? all of them are.loveu.

prac tml so better slp now! ngts n tc!

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-04-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

a simple lil gesture. a simple lil countdown.a lil note in my inbox. thk u.
tired.n exhuasted.
but i feel xing fu.
cox of u.
i noe ur watchin.
boss told me i ought to b.
fated told me she'd b too.
i trust i do.
mei you yan lei bing bu dai biao ai hen qian.
must work harder.
its 9 days.
must jiayou.
perfect it as far as possible.
hakuna matata.
even if the world would disappear.
i noe.
i noe ud still be here:D
lao di fang.

你的心事三三俩俩蓝蓝
停在我幽幽心上
你说情到深处人怎能不孤独
爱到浓时就牵肠挂肚
我的行李孤孤单单散散惹惆怅
离人放逐到边界
彷佛走入第五个季节
昼夜乱了和谐潮泛任性涨退
字典里没春天
离人挥霍著眼泪
回避还在眼前的离别
你不肯说再见
我不敢想明天

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-04-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

what a weekend. just woke up from some harcore compulsive slping.

just a short note.
to thk u fer everythin uve done.it just amts to so much. n means so much. im glad i cld walk u thru ur toughest storm:Dim glad we turned out e way we are now. its been such a long time. such a long walk. n im really thankful fer u. fer holdin my hand n walking me thru it all. i noe u noe its goin to peak in the next 2 weeks. but at e end of it all i want u to noe.tt fer all the reasons im working so hard.one of them is u. i rem u said not to thk. but u noe ur support all these time. thru all e late ngts horrible pracs n scoldings. was so impt. i just hafto thk u haha.

its going to b a long tryin 12days. n on the 12th. we'll dance fer all those we love.
ill b dancin fer u.

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-04-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

银色小船摇摇晃晃弯弯
悬在绒绒的天上
你的心事三三俩俩蓝蓝
停在我幽幽心上
你说情到深处人怎能不孤独
爱到浓时就牵肠挂肚
我的行李孤孤单单散散惹惆怅
离人放逐到边界
彷佛走入第五个季节
昼夜乱了和谐潮泛任性涨退
字典里没春天
离人挥霍著眼泪
回避还在眼前的离别
你不肯说再见
我不敢想明天
有人说一次告别
天上就会有颗星又熄灭
离人挥霍著眼泪
回避还在眼前的离别
你不肯说再见
我不敢想明天

du jiao xi zhen de hen shang shen.
huan de huan shi.

thks fer standing by. i dun wanna pull u down. yet im thankful fer the strong pillar ive got in u. mayb tts why they say. miss u most when im happy. cox uve seen too much of the opp.hugs.

se. love u.tc ok. n von too. cheng zhe : D

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-04-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

weekend again.i wish it was. weekend always haha. but oh well. mayb wo weekdays u wouldn b thankful fer wkends-ponders-
lets see whats been exciting bout the week.well cox of schoolwide participation in oc fri became a wed so we had pe on a fri which has never occured in more than a yr haha. well pe was hihgly uneventful except fer a few extra rounds from usual which is alot of toil for someone like me who finds it tough walkin along the corridor (note corridor not steps) haha.i believe my muscles r complainin but too bad lorr.

prac on fri was drill drill drill n fated was going so mad she turned into a drill. haha. not tt ill forget 5.6.7.8.1 stop. bei shou. haha. tt was damn bleahish. but on second thoughts its quite amusing how one person can make the same mistake everytime n how von has the nai xin to stop everytime n restart. n how ppl like me still find it funny ahahhaa. but drillin is like tt mah. shld expect it. its just going to go uphill. we r less than a month away! haha

after extra tuition by e two of us we went down to the tailors at river valley. to my surprise i found tt it was directly opp ju shi ling ( i think its called buddhist lodge) wher ei go fer various reasons thruout the yr. explains why i found it SO familiar haha. her office is the older kinda buildings where the lift fits like 10 ppl at max max max with everyone breathin down each others neck haha. von said it reminded her of old nafa (random) anyway tailors trademark accessory's their measuring tape around the enck haha. these few days ive fallen into the cycle of calling tailor fer this that n everythin. arguin n discussin n digging thru all her clothes. its quite interesting to be ic-ing the production of 3 sets of cloithes all at one go haha. fun n veh stressful. hope they turn out well onstage!

anyway after tt we trooped down from wherever she was to somerset mrt where von took to city hall cox she has stuff to buy n i took up to tp which brought me safely home fer yet another day. haha. such trivia.

sat was the much publicised. trumpet blowin gigantic event called 25a haha.well i spent an entire day campin at that busstop next to rtc with akk n cyrus from first aid. n i was sufficiently amused by our kbox sessions there where they filled me in with eng songs of all ages n times.ive learnt alot of new things bout akk too haha. its the learning process they call it! i sorta looked thru the bus guide at the busstop a few million times to figure where i could go from there haha. brought bao gong de gu shi with me there n read quite abit thou i coudn finish. looked at the rain fer a good 15mins as it got hevaier n heavier n disappeared after tt.

n today. today was bai qing ming haha. the car queues along the cemetery every yr says alot bout how tradition still has a place in singapore. mayb its jin xiao dao. mayb its religion. or anythin else. but qing ming is still quite a zhong shi-ed occasion fer chi. bro visited the poratble toilets there n he wasnt exactly approving of it. but cmon man. he cld have been doin it like somehwere much more public so mayb he shld b thankful fer that lil bluegreen cuboid of a toilet aft all hhahaha. anyway visited my maternal grandma n grandad n spent aorund like 3 hrs there or somethin. mayb longer. then after that we all trooped off to lunch at ntu canteen. the portion n the price are both crazy la. so muhc n so cheap haha. they r really scared e students get too hungry or soemthin. most of the undergrads i saw walkin around looked like they jus woke up. which i think they did actually. considerin its the hols now haha.

goodness i dint realise ive been blabbering so much haha. think id better go slp. if i go fer interviews tml ill b out from 8am-830pm dancing n danicng n dancing. hallejulah amitabha. tts like. love it. hahah. -i must rem to bring a towel tml-

goodnight world. haf a great week ahead.
脑袋都是你心里都是你
小小的爱在那城里好甜蜜
念的都是你全部都是你
小小的爱在那城里
只为你倾心
那一种寸步不离的感觉我知道就叫做缘

fated. just want u to noe tt i love u veh veh much. tc n jiayou k! last week to cheong n we'll b one perf down!hugggs. loveufated!

n thank u ill cheng zhu de. of cox ill. im doin what i love!(albeit in excess sometimes but nvm rgt?) thks fer being more than always there. xie le!

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-03-31T22:38:00.000+08:00

friday once again. this week. was so horrific. haha.dance dance dance!the WHOLE wk.eveyrday for more than 4 hrs each. save me. haha. ive no legs left. no proper looking knees or whatever left! haha. its like a repeat of last yr. just thrice the intensity n difficulty n expectation. hoho. sounds perfect.im using SO much tape to keep my foot in that i think i can become 3m's best consumer-after council tt is-

this is stressful. we haf first tech run on the 12th. we havent fiinished. well im glad we did 6 more eights. but theres 8 more. im supposed to b doing them now but gp's beckonin me. how gross haha. i dunno what to do. allthe subsequent sats will b taken up by council. so ill b missing alot of pracs. ugggh. its not fun goin fer driling. but its necessity. n u cant pon dance pracs tt u scheduled urself! : (

before i drive myself to tears haha. lets stop this. nothin i can do bout it if one decides to b so demanding. oh wel.its a long long day tml. we'll last thru it! we must we must we must! haha.everyone jiayou!

i wish i cld keep my words in check when i noe how much this means to u. dui bu qi.

zhen de you tian shen zhu ding.
zhen de you tian chang di jiu.
huo zhe.
zi bu guo she jing hua shui yue.

我们不哭在分开的场面
我们拥抱弥补所以的抱歉
没有遗撼今天是最好的句点
以后还能一起面对面
我们不哭在回家后的房间
成熟能让所有伤痛少一点
没有眼泪并不代表爱很浅
而是懂的微笑着让彼此怀念

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-03-24T13:32:00.000+08:00

we're done with CTs..1. haha.but nonetheless. im glad we're done.phewww.now lets cease to discuss this prob. haha.actually its not like post cts are veh free or all play n no work. haha. dived rgt back into dance now. well its a good thing. n a not so good thing too. but i noe what i love. i love what im doing :D so it doesn really matter if i get injured does it haha. ok now before we go down to discuss the nitty gritties bout how bad injruies are...haha.(yes i know im going to get into trouble with u fer saying such things hehe. but nvm.)

so anyway!its fri.j1s r in sch. n we finally get a one day break wheee. gonna meet von n fated at bugis later to get cloth so we can prac with them tml..shucks but im not going tml!bad.nvm. shalll prac at home or somethin. ims till tyrin to master my ban hou tui. but im not sure its going anywhere haha.better b able to do it by dancengt. if not chums.

lao di fang jiann.such a nice term.its gives a shu xi gan. haha. random.

记忆随身
延续欠你的戏份
带走开心
却带不走拖手时的体温
微暖质感
留在脸上还未泯
给一分钟我静静回味
将一生一世翻天覆地
明日已被今天处死
泪存在原为反映天理
这一分钟我站在何地
怎黱竟跟你活在一起
原是镜中花留在镜中死
原谅我不记得忘记

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-03-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel veh shi bai.mayb i really m.xiang yao wen wen ni gan bu gan. xiang ni shuo guo na yang de ai wo.yi ge ren de tian huang di lao.

n i love u too.
-xin

2006-02-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

first blog in 2006!haha. yes i know i know slow n SLOW.but man.life hasn been kind to me in terms of time at all haha. things started off with zkardia o6 -clapps- then it snowballed into cny dance. cny. chingay. heartland chingay. fan dance(all e time). trio dance.just alot alot alot of dance. about as much as mugging n lessons ahhaha. but its been so fulfilling even thou its terrible fer the body. ive a few million bruises on knees feet and ankle n everywhere else. literally wanna die.muscles all fatigued like nothin. i bet ppl whom i talk ot everyday have heard enough haha.

special thank yous to.
you who see me thru every storm n every rain. every sunshine n every smile. for every hug n every shoulder ferall e nagging(cant believe i said this) n encouragement.i realised ive become so used to having u around me.to not seeing u everday but hearing n feeling ur presence n ur care.ur constant chilling n countless tcs.n the dinners haha.mei you ni gai zhen me ban.

n you. who is so perfectionist i pale so much in comparison n feel like a big slacker haha. learn ot relax k. i noe u were pissed off at e av (or lack of).. n that ur completley burnt. u never say it. u insist tt its a no when i ask. but u noe it better than i that i can read u completely.so well. i just wanna say. tc take good care when im not around to. n thank u fer doing thesame!haha.everythin will b perfect!

shall stop here noww.. ive been thinking alot suddenly. esp when i couldn slp yester during the camp..oh well. nights!

liang ge ren hui bu hui deng yu wo men.
zou de hen jing. que you mei zou zai yi qi.
you shi wo xiang fang shou qu ai.
que you pa shu bu qi.
ru guo de shi.
hui bu hui shi wo bu neng shi qu de shi..
dui bu qi. wo pa shi qu.
dui bu qi. wo ai ni ma.

岁月难得沉默秋风厌倦漂泊
夕阳赖着不走挂在墙头舍不得我
昔日伊人耳边话已和潮声向东流
再回首往事也随枫叶一片片落
爱已走到尽头恨也放弃承诺
命运自认幽默想法太多由不得我
壮志凌云几分愁知己难逢几人留
再回首却闻笑传醉梦中
笑谈词穷古痴今狂终成空
刀钝刃乏恩断义绝梦方破
路荒遗叹饱览足迹没人懂
多年望眼欲穿过红尘滚滚我没看透
词嘲墨尽千情万怨英杰愁
曲终人散发花鬓白红颜殁
烛残未觉与日争辉徒消瘦
当泪干血隐狂涌白雪纷飞都成空

veh veh nice song :D n well. it has its present references..

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-12-31T21:22:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl! wo hui lai le! haha. reached sin bout..thurs midnight. if ur asking me like boss asked. man this trip made al the diff. fang da jia jiu shi fang da jia. haha. no phonecalls.no msgs. no mails. no work. n all fun haha. i must say the weather wasnt the best thing ive experienced in all my winter trips. think its cox this yr its esp late n hence esp cold. n windy. n everytin haha. got me down with flu at the end of the trip - which explains why im bloggin now only haha- firstly the temperature hardly rose above like. 5 deg? plus the winds haha. when in beijing i think i looked like a penguin everyday haha. and still feel cold. its like so cold u lose sense in ur feet n ur ears feel like they r not even there anymore haha. then theres crazy winds which blew me off my feet haha. those that u dun even wanto try walking against. was jus innocently walking one step to get into the taxi n my next step was literally blown by the wind in the direction it was going..one of the worst winds ive experienced in beijing in a few yrs. haha

then of cox theres rain n snow mixed tgt which gives u what? urm. sludge haha. n its super slippery. then there was rain on the last two days in shanghai haha. but u dun really feel much rain when u have ur trenchcoat on do u! haha. weathers been mad. n i admit i havetn worn enough. esp when i got out of the supposed northern beijing n moved to the SUPPOSED southern countys haha. bad move i must say!

but still i think the trip was just perfect.perfect scenary. view. location. food.lodging. env. lang haha just great. lets see.. the long car/train trips to diff countys gave me alot of time to think to. not really to think. but to forget n recharge. its so easy to chong xin di xiao chu lai now. im so glad.no stress lotsa free time to smell the roses- quote msl ui- haha.n i absolutely love the scenary there. ok n not forgettin the great food!!! i think i put on so much over 2weeks haha. laoshis going to beat me up : S nvm.eat first then think haha.

wahh i realised ive written alot. i think i can write even more haha. but nvm. better get out n get on with some tv watching-if theres any to start with: p-oh they even haf alot of nice tv channels there haha. -with a lot of dramas bout gong an which arent veh well acted but nvm-

its 2006 in a few hrs. what better than zai jia he zi ji zui ai de ren.haha. zai zhe li wish everyone a great yr ahead. zhi yao you xin. jiu you li. you xin you li. jiu shen me dou ke yi zuo dao!

thankyous-

shii.what more to say.xin zhao bu xuan le.e person who reads me best haha. sayin nothin is sufficient becos u can read everythin. loveu.

fated.are u planning to say everythin tt im saying here?haha.miss u so much.n at the end of it all. i know tt ull handle it rightly. i just realised we even have the same events happening at the same time n the same way of hnadling it haha. to a great yr ahead.loveu.

smallbaby.lets try to get less practical haha.thks fer al the great times we've shared in class. from getting furry cox of sharing buddys sweater. to teasing a particular cd. to attemptin to solve ques the way a sha does haha. to sitting in council gms. pulling our hair out over ticketing n running haha.to wel. the most recent interesting event. haha. looking forward to more fun times!

dar.from not talking at al. to thrown tgt to work. to being zhui jia pai dang. to talking so much we cant find new topics n we noe whats happenin in each others life fer the nxt 2 weeks.shld we thk barney n geri or tchrs day haha.you yuan ren.its really been great. im glad u found someone to fa lao sao to. cox i did! haha. rem must b happy ahhh.ji de wang ji. n. thks fer supportin me thru everythin. work n al.fer helpin w designin. fer naggin even -ponders- xie le : D

wes.to the one i can read so well. xin qing bu hao ye shi guo yi tian. xin qing hao ye shi guo yi tian. so why not smile. rem its not ur fault k.n. even thou ur handwritins minute - i still insist- n ur SO perfectionist u drive me nuts with what i wans - when i dun actually want anythin haha- i stil wan u to noe ill b here fer u dear. looking forward to workin w u yupps. huggs.

buddy dear.mr yeo ahh. arent i nice haha. thank u. fer being the toughest most hilarious n hardiest support. pillar tt keeps falling n insists that it doesn ever fall haha. okok. dun beat me. as u move into police n i get down to muggin. take gd care of urself n others since i cant tc of u :pbie tai xiang wo oh!loveu.

umin n trier. u al two always cant stand it when i say theres meeting. but aiyar. sorry lor. its just a general term which can mean alot of things which is too troublesome to mention haha. anyway. apologies fer being bz 24/7 quote tsuinam that i nv got muh time to spend with u all. listen talk n rot with u. but no worries. ive always been with u all haha. thks fer being so supportive n absolutely lovely these 2 yrs. u all understand even wo me saying. mo qi. yuan fen. you qing. liao jie. to our love over 3 yrs haha. cheers.

amy n gradngtcomm.thank u. thank u. thank u. if i could type an infinite amt of thankus i will. but everythin u all did meant everythin to me. i really respect ur dedication n passion. ur smiles n hugs. ur encouragement n drive. everyone of u made e diff. to make it a successful event. (however at this pt of time i must remind u of things called reflections n reports :p which amy n i wil brief u on so no worries pls. haha.)thank u all superman n superladies. loveu to bits.

kangkang. haha. fer standing my nonsense n sianess n constant chasing about shui shui shui. haha. fer letting me call u kang kang in the first place- i think its a veh cute name haha- fer being the great leader n mummy of chidance n fer being the great friend whos just so cute in ur own way. xie xie ni. i promise to do my best. n rem. dunneed to thank wo ok. haha.

se!.my one n only. blow me over sweep me off my feet darling. thks fer all the fun times. n all the hrs we spent in the dance studio/hall/wishingwell/voiddeck of blk a blk b/pac/canteen/amphi. fer every prac/performance/meeting.you light up my life darl.thank u. n keep rocking.

angie.haha. another one where i feel minimalistic is the key. shant say much becos i think u noe what i wanto say anyway. loveu fer everythin u are.

u.wo xiang shi ying wei liao jie er mei zai yi qi. zhi shao meng dao yi ban hui bi jiao mei. sorry. n thank u fer braving every storm with me. fer supporting n just being u.

zai jian nan dao zhen de bu neng zai shi peng you ma.oh wel.cuo bu zai wo.

你从不曾把我放在心上
你从不曾在意我所想
如果爱你从来只是妄想
承认早已疯狂
原谅我已无力再坚强
请你相信实非我所想
如果真的令你有点沮丧
拿什么赔偿

xin nian kuai le.

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-12-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

haha. i realise tt nothins ever confirmed until it happens haha. this morning i woke up when my dad called from outside n i heard parents having some weird convo bout flight time. then i realise that due to some random chance we had a chance to move up to the morning flight tml instead of the one at 4+ so now im leaving at around 8. which is alot of time diff i must say haha :D n which i completely n totally wwouldn mind since its a holiday n not work! haha.

okk. i better go pack now.. not good to leave things till too late esp when theres no tml to act as buffer time fer last minute pakcing haha.

merry christmas to everyone in advance! white white chritsmas. zhui xing fu de shen dan xie : D

n tc ok! ill try to blog if i do get my hands on a com haha. a com with broadband rather haha. alrgt. early night today : p

willbmissinuall.

别问我的流浪是否很疲惫
别问我是否还有泪
别问魂萦旧梦对不对
也别问我会不会

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-12-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

yayy its finally confirmed!haha. leaving on fri at 1600+ n coming back on 30th haha.ive been looking forward to this trip fer like. one yr! goodness gracious hahaha.i guess when u work especially hard then u will really look super forward to holidays. n fer me.haha. going to china is really reallly going away haha. free of almost every form of communicatoin haha. save fer the usage of net sometimes outta nowhere. haha. will b going to beijing nanjing yangzhou n shanghai this yr.. sounds pretty fun to me cox i havent been to nanjing n yangzhou yet. was digging like mad to find places to go in beijing n shanghai hahaha. one go too many times liao the other lacking in goood city scenic spots hahaa.

anywayy. enough bout my blabbering! haha. im just soooooooooo looking forward.

oh well.. you xie shi qing. yi ding yao zuo yi ge liao duan. guess i know what im doing. hahaha. yes i do ok. u can stop nagging me! haha. but thanks nonetheless : D
mayb im still sorry. even thou u said its no ones fault.

fateds going fer church camp tml. haf fun! haha. limins leaving fer europe on wed. clara to south africa on thurs. n shii n i will b off on fri. wowww. tts quite abit o ppl leaving late.. i would think nows quite late liao rgt. haha.

shall try to squeeze in another blog before i yuan zou gao fei -quote somebody haha- will miss all of u. n merry christmas in advance! ill b in the most ulu place yangzhou when its christmas haha. haf a white slow snowy christmas this yr.tc!

nights.

从来没有妄想这生不变
但总胜过这天
夜里拥着照片
会风雨不改
会此志不改
若是真心相爱
未理应不应该
每一次分开
期待能更加精彩
若是樱花不再为你开
明年该怎么相爱
愿望是即天老地老樱花一再为你开
年年都这么相爱

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-12-10T01:52:00.000+08:00

i wonder if u noe what i wanted to say. sometimes sorry really seems to b the hardest word. i dint mean to do it. i dint mean to say it. how it ended up like that. i really dunno.

how long did it take me to know. how long did i hide. i cant say i never felt. but i cant say i knew for sure. so whats this all about. dunno.at the end of the day would things haf changed. i think it already has.but then u wouldn say so.

when guilt overwhelms u.u feel like saying. ok lets just give it a try.how do u hate someone.whos been so incredibly si xin ta di.wo shuo bu chu kou.dui bu qi.it isnt ur fault. then isit mine. id rather it b mine. then at least ill noe how to deal with it.leng jing xiang xiang. cai zhi dao yuan lai yi qie dou you qian ying hou guo.
if being w him is cox hes nice to u. its outta responsibility. its outta gratitude.
dui bu qi. wo wan bu qi.

what do i want.or u. wo yao de ni neng bu neng gei. bu shi bu neng jie shou. bu shi xin li mei you ni. zhi shi.
its never going to b the same.acting like it is is not goin to help.i noe it only too well.theres alot i wanto noe. but i know ull b unwillin to provide me with e ans.

我已经
已经把绝情变成了恭维
因为不配
你就忽然自卑说声失陪
我已经
已经把沉默变成了忏悔
无路可退只能无言以对
分手伤了谁
谁把他变美
我的眼泪写成了诗
已无所谓
thankudar.thankudaryl.thankufated.thankushii.thankulimin.

give urself some time to leng jing. before tt. i wouldn say anythin..i wouldn do anythin. only when ur ready.
shi suan shi tian shi ku. ill take it becos i caused it. dui bu qi.
zhen de dui bu qi.

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-11-26T15:15:00.000+08:00

yayy.just got another pressy.whee!aiyor then waiting for fated to move over haha.must b outta my mind. time passs so quickly mann.mon n im off for work attachment at nat cancer centre haha. n tt time it was like somethin so far away.hrm.but now its jus 2 days away. hehe. hope its going to b fun haha! n then theres grad nthen ill b off to china! -hopefully- haha. finally get a proper council.school.work break. sounds relaly enticing. both me n shii concluded tt we were going to lapse into depression if we dun leave soon haha. dunno why alos lehh haha.

buddy!haha. congrats congrats ur past As haha.however.haha.dun forget to mug hard for sats wheeeee haha.u mug so long so hard liao. ye bu zai hu duo yi ge xin qi rgt.haha.anyway.then u can go shopping hhaha. u noe what i mean la ahh. dun run away from it!hehe.-n dun throw chairs at me u-

i just found a new liang zhu haha. its surprisingly refreshing n has its special meaning for me haha. oh ya i wanto thank rach n twin in advance haha.thanku.

zhan zai mu hou zui zhong yao de ren
bu ceng shuo guo
zhi dao fa xian
ni yi ran

想要探究我们被禁锢的原因
这些过去失了道理无从说起
我不甘心还要回到坟前哭泣
西晋迁都成东晋你却还在我心里
我要怎么还你应该双飞的约定
还在上演的悲剧
循环不灭的定律
让我只能悄悄地藏着感情

yi ran zai wo xin li.
dui bu qi.mei yong qi.
dui bu qi.bu zhi dao.

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-11-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

i haf somethin to announce haha. i cleaned up my room today!yayyyy!n i dint even need alotof nagging to overcome the inertia hehe.mums theory was tt i wun have another chance if its not today haha.my attachment starts on the 28(sadly) till the 9 n den im leaving wheee!!!n every weekday i hafto do grad stuffs. boohoohooo.life is so un-beautiful!im really lookin forward to go to the piece of land with cold weather. bare trees n steamy dumplings hahaa. ok. think itsjust becos its a hol tts why everythin just seems nicer haha. am i making any sense?not sure there..but doesn matter hehe.

anywayyy. next week. i thought it would b a relaxing week. budden i realised its not aft all :( haha when in e first place did i get relaxing weeks anyway hehe. so i shall not try to get somethin thats not mine techinicaly!haha. okok. my heads spinning think i shall go meet zhou gong.

fated.:darling!dun worry u. haha. fated yi bei zi neng you ji ge haha. i love u tooooooo :D hopefully ppl out there wun get jeaaalous.. but then too bad if they do!hahah.

我已经已经把我伤口化作玫瑰
我的泪水已经变成雨水早已轮回
我已经已经把对白留成了永远
忘了天色究竟是黑是灰
分手伤了谁
谁把他变美
我的眼泪写成了诗已无所谓
让你再回味
字不醉人人自醉
因为回忆总是美

nights dears.take good care!

n i love u too.
-xin

zhen de bu dong wo zai gao shen me gui.

2005-11-13T18:41:00.000+08:00

yayy!i just completed my inr hahahaha.which means.PW IS DONE WITH!haha. the happiness in me is just bursting haha. becos this means ill haf exactly 2 weeks to complete all grad work. which. is. in. 23 days haha. lets just pray tt everythin goes well well well haha :D hrm. for the remaining minority who hasn yet taken op. such as.. ced?haha. break a leg. it will b over in exactly one day haha.jiayou jiayou:D

allrgt.i haf a problem here n i surely wouldn mind if anyone can solve it.whats a suitable affordable wow-ish present for prom king/queen?haha. if anyone has the perfect ans, ill b eternally grateful!haha.

i realise i havent blogged in long long long time. at least by hols standard i shld b blogging like what.daily?but i haven updated since quite long i think haha. at least by feel it is. today was relatively peaceful, save for the occasional quarrel comign from my neighbour n his kids. sometimes u wonder if hes going to get a heart attack the way hes yelling at his kids. oh well. the perils of being a father.-haii- the way he goes bout doing his scolding is as follows:
before 7am: scold his son whos late for school lunchtime: his son is missing fr the dinin table. evening: his son is not doing hw. night: his son is on the phone for too long. n then there r the weirder ones like. his son dint wash his socks(?!) hahha. now dun say im eavesdropping on my neighbour alrgt. hes so loud im quite sure the whole kampung can hear him lorr!oh n in case u all think its one son. he has 3 haha.

the above para is completely random n nonsensical. n i really haf no idea what i added it there for haha. prolly cox i just heard him explode again!

i jus found this reallly realllly nice song by li ke qin.u jus hafto wow at his voice. haha.its called ying hua.his songs r usually so its-ok-if-u-dun-love-me-but-i-will-always-love-u kind. haha. just like richieren n ado haha.

haf a great week ahead everyone. for the j2s. esp for my darlin buddy: jiayous!mug hard ok:D

shii- our date. haii. why r we always so bz. zhen shi de. now yuan xiao yun shan again. but we shall not! haha. we still haf week aft coming one rgt haha.

zhen me de bu dao de pian xiang yao tiao zhan.
er deng zhe ni de que bu ken jie shou.
bu zhi dao yao shen me de ren.
jiu bu zhi de bei ai.
dui bu qi..

任两心越过你我底线
从来没有妄想
这生不变
但总胜过这天夜里拥着照片
会风雨不改
会此志不改
若是真心相爱
未理应不应该
每一次分开
期待能更加精彩
若是樱花不再为你开
明年该怎么相爱

..hai shi shu bu qi.

n i love u too
xin.

2005-11-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

today was damn packed!haha.first choreo chingay then meeting meeting. then dance.then meeting.wah. haha. faints.n umin just told me she bored.hehhehehe.ehh go do jigsaw la minmin:D haha. ok. cool name. i just foudn a great cool name for u!haha.fated dun b jealous la.. nxt time i promise to zip my mouth.amitabha haha.

sigh..it seems like ppl are gettin quite depressed nowadays..mayb a buildup.mayb a big thing that hit really really hard. nerves get frayed.tears fall. n the saddest of them all. is the one who has to try his or her hardest to look up n look away to keep the tears from coming down.theres techinically nothin wrong with crying really. its just expression what.but its true.. having someone to like. lean on n cry to. isnt exactly easy.but it doesn mean there isnt!haha.really.just a call away..

omgoodness.for once wesley is going off before me haha.he just said. im dying falling asleep in frnt of com. call u tml haha. this is seriously a breakthru!i better liek record it somewhere so i can show him next time haha. ok i think minmin is rgt.im goign mad n i need to hit the bed soon. but i dun think i should hit it. i should just lay on it. cox theres blueblacks on my back n ill die if i hit the bed. hoho.

i think im falling sick grrrr.the weird feelings here again.this not good. i need top form.bleah.okk. but to voicelesscreature shii. tc ok! must get well by mon. then can wow them with ur voice ahhaa. just hao hao zhao gu k.loveu.

tc everyone n enjoy hols!

还没好好的感受
雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖
会更明白
什么是温柔
还没跟你牵著手
走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以後
学会珍惜天
长和地久..

n i love u too.
-xin

~ru guo you yi tian wo fa xian wo fang bu xia.que you shuo bu chu kou.na gai zhen me ban...

2005-10-31T00:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday i was tv surfing when i found this pretty interestin taiwan serial on channel..u i think which was bout some ballet dancers.. ok actaully the whole episode i watched yester had bout 5 mins worth of dancing in it with e usual a loves b b loves c c loves a story. with abit of disease n alot of heartbreak put into it haha.but the way the serial was presented was quite interesting.. it was somewhat artistic haha.a particular character in the serial did his part really well i must say. just a few mins n u feel sorry for him alrdy: p

ok i haf no idea why i mentioned the above paragraph haha. but if one day u r too free u may wanto go over.. its at 1230 am on sats(or sun rather ; p) n its well. keep in mind its an ou xiang ju haha.

i thorougly enjoyed this weekend ahha. becos i dint do anythin constructive at all. ok unless u count housework n cooking n other mandatory n mundane stuff which i do every week anyway haha:D okok i did a 1000piece jigsaw in like 8 hrs? haha. its damn fun!!! : Dn u get a great sense of achievement when u complete it ok. just becos it irritating whenu cant find one piece doesn mean its not fun:D n its the challenge tt counts ok u: p -n u noe who u r haha-

yawnn. theres chidance kbox tml! our official second outing tml. if u count the post syf dinner-celebration as the first ahhaa. haha. everytime i think of this cca. i thank fate for puttin me there.for giving me a part to play in it. for well. givin me fated wenli se von kang kang char n everyone who has taught me so much n given me so much.thankyou.

buddy-u better focus n study hard n dun make me volunteer to stay up to wait for u to go sleep silly buddy!dun lose steam ok!its going to b over n done well veh soon. dun worry!

this is really random but i must tell julio just how jealous im of him. hes going on hol next week!:p tai xian mu le.oh n in that case its too bad u miss the treat. dun blame me for delaying ur birsthday present again. not my fault this time!haha: p

我心的爱
是否你心的梦
可否借一条桥
让我俩相通
在这借来的桥中
明天的我
明天的你
会不会再像那天相拥
今晚的风和明天的梦
到底在你心里有多少影踪
可否这个晚上
借来时间借来晚风

this is super old song. n super nice haha. veh dancey.but not the oopmphy dance if tts what ur thinkin!haha. lsiten to it if ur free. nice:D wanfeng by sally yeh..

nights everyone.happy hols!
dui wo zhe me hao. zhi de ma.

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-10-27T20:41:00.000+08:00

i jus woke up.but i have the overwhelming feeling to yawn. yyyyyawn.
youmin n dar.see i never break my promises rgt. i promised ill go see. see liao.although i still think its useless.nvm.ill just observe tis week n see what happens la k.at least i dun feel guilty after pangsehing myself on tues.then u like say until so evil: p anyway. i shall announce here for all the others who've been waiting to bring me to the doc. IVESEENHIM.haha. see how now lorr. at least i have some anti-nausea thingy now.which would hopefully enhance my ability to supress the feeling when need be. oh man. ahha. sadistic!

somehow im feeling abit high now-a good change from the day which was quite depressing-.must b the rain that just started haha. julio dun say i write depressing stuff ok. its just perspectives.haha.n i beat u who selfconfess to puttin a grin on ur face for no reason thewhole day :p

lets see. i havent been blogging at all for a long time.spent too much time writing daily digests to ppl.typing this.writingtht. guess my fingers have just gotten fatigue.how pathetic.denise noticed that day that i use my index finger to hit spacebar instead of using thumb which apparently everyone does haha. if ur typin anythin now by chance, see if ur like me. e weird who spaces with her index finger haha. her one-liner was so cute.ur hand is so werdly positioned!haha.

oh i know why i havent been bloggin!its nt just finger fatigue.dancing has taken up most of my time immediately after promos.yes. preppin for openhouse mini concert has taken a huge toll.haha.whats with laoshi teaching the cool fan dance-n i really mean 酷-haha.but behind all the coolness is the truckload of bruises n pain n sores that every dancer had to get.we all look like we got abused.quite badly haha.like.angie had two open wounds, someone must b very xintong haha.then vizanne really looks like she got abused hahha.char cant walk down stairs properly.se looks like shes being tortured.fated hasn even recovered from her ankle!n yvonne moans everytime we kneel ahha. kang kang is surprisingly fine :Dim quite dead also la. n ull find new bruises at elbows, back after every prac session haha.the price to pay for being cool.but im startign to love the dance more n more. its challengin. so its fun ahha:D

i havent been mugging.which is fine by me if i could say ahhaha. just tt my class is chao guai. so here n there must finish my tutorials at e veh least so that wun get killed in class by teachers haha.

i miss ppl.u know who u all r:Du all make me smile.from deep deep deep down inside.u make all the wrong right.all the unhappiness better.u make painful bruises buildin bonds.staying late in sch undertsanding somebody.im glad ive had u.

fated: i want u to noe just how much i love u. know u wun b in a good mood.but i rem u promised ull sleep over it.n wake up smiling again rgt. i take ur word for it. i always have.theres still so much beyond what we see today. a further, longer, wider path that u need to walk. so just let this run over. n you will come out stronger alrgt.everythin n anythin.ill do it for u. just want u to b happy alrgt.il b seeing alot of u cox of dance n im glad.rem u owe me tt letter haha. -yi qie dou shi zhu ding de shi ni de jiu shi ni de bu shi ni de qiang qiu ye mei yong. but since its fated it will turn out for the better. loveu.

buddy: hows it having no pesky j1 disturbing ur mugging peace HURR. haha.hope uve recovered already yes yes?haha.jiayou ok.must mug hard.really really hard!haha.will b here for u always.thank you.for being the veh bestest buddy i could find.ever:D

youmin: satisfaction from eating doesn make u a pig for goodness sake!haha.its called enjoying life darl.enjoooooy.

if we could all cry less and smile more.if we could all smile less and laugh more.if we just could.fang shou qu ai.then mayb its a diff story.oh but does it matter.noe myself too well.rather not.excuses again horr.dunno: p for al the could-have-beens, for everyone out there who cant decide whether its worth losing friendship for another form of friendship.take it in r stide. u will never noe if u try. zhu ni men xing fu:D b positive.mei shen me shi bu ke neng de.

爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给你飞翔
for the ever giving.ur so nice.
toonice.

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-10-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

maybe i was only so disappointed.
so hurt becos it came from you.
maybe it was just ur bad luck
or maybe i just thought it wouldn b u
of all ppl.
it just wouldn be
you.
there r lots of maybes.
but one things for sure.
it isnt your fault.
if tts the last thing i could say to you.
or the last thing you would hear from me.

the art of sayin sorry.lies in sayin sry fer somethin u din say do or wanted.but being sincere.becos the party who receives the apology.really deserves it.ask me who im doing it for. ask me why. i cant ans. interestingly. i cant. ur only makin me more determined to climb higher.im not afraid of heights.ill never be.i used to be.not now. not anymore.

i seem to b puking out more than im eating these few days. hrm.mayb i shall see a doc. soon. must b ulcers according to mum.youmin. i guess ur rgt...we both noe why.sigh.but man.we have no stretching limits rgt.so big deal.fang ma guo lai.

盼到了黎明
又怕让自己清醒
有多少未知的莫名委屈
要我强忍著不能哭泣
我真的累了
累得想放弃逃避
逃回那不再有谁会再乎的过去

nights.

2005-10-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

yay.some freedom has been rendered.but then again.wat great fun itis to plan someones party.i dunno.esp if its like.expensive.pressurising.n quite.depressin.sigh.im going to reread xiao ao jiang hu fer the nth time now haha. prolly speed read thru it. but at least its a form of relaxation. besides the fact tt the font is. abit small haha. n its fan ti. n i havent read chinese in few million yrs so im going to prgress quite slowly i think haha : p

i haf a puking feeling.crap.haf been getttin it since the afternoon.ugh.feel really really queasy now.totally.off.but why!i dint even do anythin wrong.haha.i mean eat or drink or do anythin wrong lorr.crazyy bod mechanism.sighhh. lets see.. theres a few things i needto do now. haha.i need to pack up my room fer eg. o.O oh well. anyway. i knwo this is super random but trier. tui yi bu hai kuo tian kong haha. must b happier ok darl!

shii. i finally noe how it feels to b out 2 days in a row haha.think weve never done tt b4.n our fav haunt haha. so funny.yawwwn i think id better go sleep quite soon haha. im goign totally incoherent.to everyone out there. have fun n enjoy these few hard earned days of 100% fun. of cox fer my com ppl who came down for meeting n will b workign thru the weekend.three cheers. jiayou n we will survive!(we have survived 4 ol months.faints.)haha.n of cox to char n all the harworking openhousecommers who r workign hard to create a rousing welcome for juniors haha. jiayou too!

我将眼泪流成天山上面的湖
让你疲倦时能够扎营停驻
羌笛声胡旋舞为你笑为你哭
爱上你的全部放弃我的全部
爱上了你之后我开始领悟
陪你走了一段最唯美的国度
爱上了你之后我从来不哭
谁是谁的幸福
我从来不在乎
谁是谁的旅途
我只要你记住

n i love u too..
-xin

2005-09-09T22:07:00.000+08:00

heyyheyy.to everyone out there whos biting fingernails over prelims. break a leg.u can do it : D went fer extra bio lesson today n man. i realised just how many ppl in class were sick. to start with limin was sniffing non-stop, clara was down with high fever fer the past 2 days, julio sounded like a clogged tap : p n everyone just looked. positively negative. sigh. too much to do too lil too lil time.ouch yea.

403..shii umin trier yings rachlover ser jun.miss u all terribly.takecare n i promise we'll meet up soon haha.sooon..loveuall.

buddy..jiayou dear!haha.mug harrd n tc.

i dunno what to say.mayb tts why im keeping quiet.dui bu qi.

因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-08-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

im surprised i actually managed to sneak some time to update haha.yea. the week from hell is over... quite peaceful i guess.. math test wasnt veh comforting but nonetheless, there was abit of saving grace in phy n bio spa. oh well. then there was the supposed-to-b-3-hrs-ended-up-being-nearly-4-hrs chem lesson on fri which nearly drove everyone nuts.tt includes our darling tchr too.by like 3 plus we were pretty incoherent.n by 4 she just about stopped digesting what was presented on the board by hanxu n jus went on to present her prepared ans.haha.n everyone was either sleeping.talking.stoning.i think we even lost interest in complaining haha.i was sandwiched btwn limin n ching n we just sat there randomly laughing about nonsense stuff.haha.oh n how limin claims tt koos handwriting is neat aft all. haha. then there was hongyue who consistently borrowed liquid.haha.what a resounding boom to a fri afternoon.

had grad meeting then tchrs day decor aft tt.missed tchrs day meeting but anyway.oh n i squished in a meeting with fated:D fer budget proposal over dinner too.but tt dinner was.suffice to say.veh sad.i knew i was hungry but just cldnt eat haha.totally no appetite.i had a good mind to go home n slp la.e u r going to fall sick feel was consuming me.bleah.but anyway.went fer gm after all.u know sometimes its not exactly too good to have unique -n ugly- handwriting becos u cant fake.anyway.gm went pretty okayly too i guess..usual stuffs.welfare happened to b sitting in one row so boss got a resounding welcome when he went up to do his update haha.

lets see.stayed back aft gm to finish painting the giant apple.n dar had like 3 hrs of slp tt day n i had such an awfully long day tt we both ended up highly zombified-n may i add veh veh incoherent- when we finally finished.n best thing was jun actually thought i was kidnappedo.O n when she called i talked to her fer a full 5mins wo noeing who she was haha.interestign hurr.she has just been promoted to council mummy yeaa:D

ended up reaching home at bout midngt haha.what a noble sacrifice.yawnnn.and sat we finally did the tree we have been draggin fer a good one month aft batch talk. it looks veh chio. n veh like a tree to me haha.but i dunno what everyone else thinks haha.oh well.n the super cute mushies too!! haha.lovethem.cox i drew them.hehh.thickskinned.

what an eventful wkend.nxt wks not gonna b any better.rehearsals fer tday.putting up decor.dance prac:D n a potential decor comm qing gong yan :Dwhich i think its veh justified haha.we worked.well. quite hard i guess?haha.well at least we got good feedbakc frm tchrs..pray hard fer the rest of the decor to go well!

hrm.wonder.ponder.imagine.i will refuse to look.

看着你的笑在别人眼中燃烧
我却要不到一个拥抱
我像是一个你可有可无的影子
和寂寞交换着悲伤的心事
对爱无计可施
这无味的日子
眼泪是唯一的奢侈
fer u if it applies :p

nights everyone.tc
n i love u too.
-xin

2005-08-21T09:40:00.000+08:00

yawn..sun morn.next weeks gonna b quite.traumatic haha.need to do some extensive muggin.n intensive too.sigh..shall like choose not to think bout it when i blog or this will b such a depressing entry.this week has been...how do i say it.rollercoasterish?maybe.mayb not.some really infuriating table problems.reallllly.irritating ones.budden again its only everyday business that crap comes our way isnt it.haha.big deal.

on a lighter note, the last few days of the working week was spent quite interestingly haha.to start with, tchrs day decor comm went into full steam on wed haha.dar n me completed like 3 banners in 3 evenings :D n man they look really really chio.haha this com is really quite happy.it has like zero stress. n the nonsense we talk when doing this noble stuff is pretty entertaining haha.n besides.e essence of this is good work.good company hahah. but the sch should really not have that auto lighting system. we were painting the gigantic apple on fri then just when ced n dar finish pasting all the plastic n we started to sketch out e apple, the lights offed on us o.O then an hr later the lgihts came back on. what a relieve haha.but suffice to say. it was quite short termed.halfway thru. ok not halfway but about nine oh five they offed it again!!!ended up relying on the emergency exit sign's lgt, some stairway lights n street lights.nvm.at least we completed.left the words:p

i dun really noe why.this is so confusing.said some wrong things mayb.n dint think of its effects..i shld have expected.shld have guessed.but id rather not.hai shi an bing bu dong.too tired.too busy.too much to think.too lil grey matter hoho.

fated--haha im beginning to think that heyy.we're too fated liao.scarrrry.haha.but yes darl.love u too:Dtc n dun stress too ok.if not cannot dance liao haha.

shii--u know me too well.haha.loveu.tc alrgt.

是我不好
是我还忘不掉
心痛只能用时间来消耗
毕竟当初是我选的一个
给不起我永远的人
就算是我不好
对不起
是你太大方
是你对我太好
对不起
每次伤你伤得很深
我却不知..

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-08-13T18:44:00.000+08:00

u know what relieve is.relieve is when ticket sales are comin to a close n u actually survived.relieve is when u meet e min no. of tables needed fer it to actually happen.relieve is when.woah.11 n 12 aug is over.haha.i guess we all know what relieve is ehh.before anything.three cheers to all in the grad night comm plus poon fer surviving.haha.i guess we are all veh glad that we have one veh large thing off our minds.phew.just one more monday. plus some admin work. n part two is over.of cox we cant forget that heyy.theres auditions coming up next week plus some other stuffs.hrm.anyway.im just glad this portion is over.really.glad.

had dance on thurs.haha.e meeting aft tt was absolutely hilarious.chidance is always super jovial.haha.i think i wouldn haf survived if i dint have such a happy cca hoho.whats with al those crazy pracs as well.its a veh.fam cca.haha.anyway.se fated angie n me got put into the food plus token of appreciation plus rubbish bin comm fer some midautumn fest performance with chi soc haha.can u imagine.the token in the bin!!haha.oknvm.we shall all not visualise hehh.

me n darren plus all e welfarers haf just became the official art club of council.haha.jian ping guo.oh well.time to get dinner.hopefully next week will b successful.i dunno in which way.in every sense i guess?n i hope our apple tree holds tgt haha.

i think i shouldn guess.would i be lettin u down if i dint cont.mayb it wasnt anythin afterall.just me dreaming a lil dream.would it be better off.unreal.intangible.n just not there.i dunno if i wil.n im sorry.oh well.its a new week ahead.cheers.

就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走请你记得我
如果难过请你忘了我

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-08-08T00:46:00.000+08:00

its a sunday ngt n im quite surprised im not asleep..dun really noe why im still awake.besides the fact tt im supposed to b checking some promethum ceremony document fer ushering route.hrm.this weekend has been one really good one.dunno if its cox nat day hols coming up.or isit cox ive had a really relaxing wkend haha.well. i spent sat at ticketing dry run n shopping with parents.bought quite abit haha.im seriously in love with the mango dessert at chinatown.it can like bi mei the one i had in hk.haha.shall remind myself to go back more often.today was slack like nothin too haha.picked up some nonsense book ot read fer leisure.dint do much.had a futile attempt to catch up some old tutorials haha. but overall im just feeling happy this wkend :D

oh well. sadly enough.not everyone is.poor soul.dun think so much.it isnt veh good to think too much where such matters are concerned.esp since pessimism always gets the better of u haha.u think u worry n u never ever try.n then u will never ever know.haha.zhi de ma.if it wouldn hurt yea.

tml thers celebrations n sports carn haha.finally get to play with 403 netball again. after more than a yr.haha.fun fun fun :Dyayy.im looking forward.thou i sure hope trier wont eat me up fer bad shooting haha.alrgt.lets just have lotsa fun tml:D plus theres more shoping fer presents after.hrm.sounds packed.packed enough to send me off to sleep now haha.nights.

爱离窗外越来越远
下着大雨那一夜
你哭红双眼并没有不对
我才发现我无力挽回
爱离窗外越来越远
已过了多久时间
你哭红双眼并没有不对
我才发现这早已是从前

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-07-30T13:40:00.000+08:00

heyy heyy.cheers to a new template haha.somehow i feel the lily looks so ultimately serene n nice haha.oh well.. dance farewell in a few hrs..my throats building up on me again.argh.the nose n throat takes turns lorr. so irritating.anyway.this weeks been ok i guess.tpically fatigued.typically busy.feeling super stretched.somewhat like a rubberband who hasnt got much elasticity but is stretched nonetheless haha.its a cool challenge.n aft sleeping really early n cutting myself off early fer 2 days.im feelin on again.haha.better than before : p

i wonder how u can stand not saying hahhaa.call it ability.call it chen fu haha.doesn matter.put things into focus n all will b veh fine haha.at least i would think so thou of cos.u can beg to differ haha.basically.it doesn matter.gee.

next week will b mad.good luck to me.n everybody: its chocolate.d time!!get those groovy chocs n cards, thank urself n ur friends n support the welfare dept :D ahha.publicity: p

n i love u too.
xin

一盏离愁孤单伫立在窗口
我在门後假装你人还没走
旧地如重游月圆更寂寞
夜半清醒的烛火不忍苛责我

2005-07-21T18:41:00.000+08:00

decided that id better queeze an entry in or id never get down to it.lifes a roller coaster ride mann.this week?been down in the positive u shape graph.how typically ironic.but its doesn matter anymore.or does it.wait..im not too sure.what do i want.i dun want anythin.its what she wants.not me.zui wu gu de di san zhe.haha not in that typical sense in case anyone was wondering.wo hai mei zi ge haha.anyway. got cts all back liao.i guess i cant b complaining.but nowhere near good.so well.its up to me n the next test to make out what it should b ahha.shui yuan bahh.

grad night.sambadeamigos.m i permitted to start praying from now tt it wil turn out well.jiayou amy.we can do it.we will do it: Dtelepathic arent we haha. oh welll.n jiayou to all my darlin comm members who have been sloggin their asses off. i thankk u sincerely on behalf of the function ics plus e seniors haha : p but really. no matter how hard it is.we have all stuck together.just survive this month k.things will b abit easier after like mid aug.but dun ever lose sight of our goal!haha.ritzcarlton on 7 dec.

a veh impt person in my life is havin a veh impt event tml haha.heres my veh fated wish fer my veh fated darling.
fated-heyy fated.missed u muchly since we've stopped intensive prac.i dun even see u at pracs nowadays!-horros-n yes.i miss dancin with too even thou u r like 20 times better than me haha :D anyway. its ur gym com tml..i dunno whether i can go down. but ill try my best k..n darl.dun say u r not prepared. cox i noe u definitely are.just take care. smile.rem smileeee.n the stage is all urs.break a leg fer tml.ill b praying fer u.u owe me tt long forsaken letter.haha.rem our date fated.. :Dloveutoo.

time fer dinnerr.. one sane day when i actually can get home before everyone else at home has finished their dinner haha.shall go off guaily then.be back fer grad llater : p

我相信把你的名字
念上一千遍就会念成
轮回一千遍的诺言
渡过雨打风吹的考验
我相信把你的容颜
看上一千遍就会看成
最永恒的预言

n i love u too.
xin

2005-07-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

yawnnn.1246.i decided to blog once a week. just like how ive recorded in kwans survey haha.well.its a good thing i guess..can write some stuff.practise my fingers strength.n urm. i dunno what else.haha.spill some frustration n panic onto this little space.so tt i can read back n laugh at myself haha.

my days have been filled with meetings.proposals.planning.executing.planning.excuting.thinking.writing.deciding.meeting more.planning more.its just one big circle.n u keep going around it.chasing somethin.called.perfection?i dunno.i just wanto make sure tt.i dun let ppl who have placed trust in me down.i wouldn.trust me.haha.just tt.so many proposals.sure can drive me nuts haha.baika must cheng zhu okk.i promise u that thurs will b free.no matter what haha.n yes.chocolated.lets put in our best.n get e best:D bu hui you shi de.

on a lighter note..lifes been slightly in perspective now that i can get back home before the sun sets fer like 1day a week.its a real welcome considering my previous schedule..oh well.keep going.n never lose steam.someone remind me to liaise w all e various ppl.i need a timetable haha.

wo xiang ku. ni ke bu ke yi zhan shi bu yao shui.pei zhe wo rang wo ke yi bu kao an mian yao ru shui.dan ru guo dan ru guo shuo xia qu..huo zhe..

bros bday next week.must make sure i find some time to get him somethin-if not mr baby will bawl : p-to think hes already 20.soon enough..oh ya.realise i mgt just spent my bday doing dry run..oh well.. ive got the whole council to celebrate it w me if its any consolation..mayb leave e night free:D.haha but thats so long later.what rubbish m i spouting.this is a sign to sleep haha.nights..

带走开心
却带不走拖手时的体温
微暖质感留在脸上还未泯
这一分钟我站在何地
怎黱竟跟你活在一起
原是镜中花留在镜中死
原谅我不记得忘记

n i love u too.
xin-

2005-07-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

its finally over.congrats everyone fer surviving till today.haha.its like.first sorta major-at least e setup was:p-test.anyway.lets not talk about it anymore ahha. over n done with.-yayy-

lets see.to quote mel.its like hols just started...not really even.tmls theres welfare at 10.proposals fer the yr to b churned out.n other stuffs on top of that too.i wonder if i can wake on time ahah.according to junghans its just setting out the timeline.im so sure. its just tt only man.oh well.

finally can start dancing ahha. im so rusty i think im veh left hand left leg liao.not good. not good at all.even thou even when i prac.still not like veh helpful.oh man.i should stop this one man convo.monologue.so retarded. yawnn.must b the five days of cts plus mugging.ughhh.at least its momentarily over. haha. till it picks up again like in three months.ok.but its worse for seniors haha.in two months.jiayou. gotta sleep soon.long day tml...oh well.

不奢望天长地久
只要是曾经拥有
今天内心感足够
应走时候决定放手
至爱知音感谢你恩深厚
临别依依不忍再望转头
期望你记住我今晚分手以后
从旧歌中心灵互扣

n i love u too.
xin.

2005-06-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

had one full days muggin with shiyun in sch.then we moved to thomson at bout 3 cox we were dying of hunger n dint wanto eat at j8.-dun ask me why haha-ate at kfc.n its really like dejavu cox the last time we were at thomson we went to kfc too.n we nearly sat at e same seat but decided against it cox there was too lil table space fer all our barangbarang haha:D i guess today was pretty effective.oh well.lets not dwell on this topic shall we.haha.

anyway.just heard hanlongs version of when u say nothin at all.a good try indeed haha.-pats back-just finished my proposal.hopefully it makes more sense now.just need to edit it thru the whole grp n send n then pray hard it comes back with an extra smiley face on it or soemthin: p

i miss orange fanta..i miss blank days..i miss..oh well.-you ren shuo xi guan bi ci de xi guan ye shi yi zhong ai-sometimes all i really wanto feel is the rthymn of the rain.smell it.touch it.hear it.love it.it has to do with memories.it has to do with temperature.mayb its just becos. it makes me think.thinkofyou-

fated--you said you will ting wo de ahh.dun move haha.i know u will zhao gu la.but just b te bie te bie xiao xin xiao xin okk.ill b worrying fer u haha.

budddyyy--hope u liked ur mug-gin essentials haha.remember.fer a dose of happiness.n e positive outlook that u taught me to cultivate.dun lemme beat u at being tve:p u.or rather.we will b fine.dun look back. or u will get strained necks : p ill b here.

its 1.31am.hrmm.i shall go sleep soon.woke up early today to meet shi haha.but i know ill be hugging my bolster n thinkin.its a good thing i guess.then mayb my brains wun rust.hrmm.its already lagging now.nights world.tc of urselves..

我唱得她心醉
我唱得她心碎
她努力不让自己
看来很累
岁月在听我们唱
无怨无悔
在掌声里唱到
自己流泪
唱到自己流泪

n i love you too
-xin

2005-06-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

all i can think of now is. chocolateschocolates.n more chocolates.n then in between we must add some enthalpy change of atomisation. latticeenergy n wha nots.ive a good mind to conclude that im going mad. my head feels like explodin.hrm.signs of fallin sick.but cant la.so wun.i dun even noe what im saying.ahh.whatever.doesn matter.

i just really wish this thing turns out rgt.turns out good.i mean. isnt chocs supposed to b the way round everyones heart?-take em down n melt them- oh wel. why dun everyone think so n act like tat too. i mean really!oh no.this is bad.i must stop thinkin bout chocs. i must.if not im going to die la.how.die of.saturation.anyway.pray this is a success.

cts.oh man.lets give it a skip. dun wanto mention it at all. -sometimesidliketoquitnothineverseemstofit-
im sorry i snapped at you..just.duibuqi ok.i noe ud say it doesn matter.i noe ud understand.anythin fer me.but.i just cant take it fer granted.duibuqi...

phew.i feel better after fa xie-in all my men qi here haha.seems like.blogs are good punching bags. can like recommend it fer destress month. ahhhhhh.shucks. i must stop thinking bout this. 3.2.1stop.bleahhh.

yings.thanks fer drawing darl.thanks alot.ive booked one fer u.really.xiexieni.
angie.shi.ilu too.

给我信心当我未如愿
披雨戴风问寒送我暖
亲切眼光舒我乱和倦
从无更改心照总不宣
一次也不推说乱和倦
一次你都未曾去计算
给了再给始了便无断
无条件分担各种辛酸
从前没讲今次要说多谢你
我有你给的爱因而完全
若问世界谁无双..

n i love u too.
xin.

2005-06-10T01:23:00.000+08:00

hrm. its 1.25.n im readin doubleindicator method.think its some make up fer it mentality.cox theres 403classgathering tml.n like all e rest of my darls who swear by our class -yayy- im not gonna miss this fer anythin.haha.so i thought id better mug a lil to make up fer tmls party.this weeks partiesss, rather : p

sigh.i dunno how to describe what im feeling.worried i guess.i still maintain dan xin is more apt-yes i know its direct translation.but e feel of the dan xin is more suitable : p-anyway.buddy dear ahh. i just really hope u will listen to me. n pls. just pls.dun go tml.stay in n recover.this has been draggin on fer like.eons la.if u cont like dat it will become fullblown then it will b worse.just. dun overexert urself n pls zhao gu ok.im just really.xin tong n dan xin to see u sick : p esp when u have so many other things waitin fer u to get well so u can do them. but nvm.just noe ill b here fer u yupp. fer a dose of happiness. haha :D

had pip yester.besides the total sense of loss that i cant jump into the pool.stupid healin toe haha.we had a whacking fun time. expected. n quite touching too haha. certain parts were hilarious. some were pure retarded.most just said one thing. when u put 2 councils together. n sing the barney song. u get one big happy family:D -with a multitude of crossdressers n blingbling experts haha:D-. whether its buddies.ogls.friends.or ppl collectively -n lovingly : p- named 24ths :D its been 2 long mths since that fateful three days tt bonded us together. i dun think i did. or ever will regret. so thank you:D n of course fer my fellow batchmates.we r in everythin together!

a lil tribute since im feelin somewhat.smoky rgt now.403. is a class to rem.every single member of threerocks. is a superstar to me -rem our yrbk layout babes:D- whenever i think bout fourthree.its bitersweet memories.more sweet than bitter actually. but mostly its this immense sense of warmth.somethin creamy.somewhat like a bi feng tang.-mayb tts e emotions u get frm sticking with this class thru stuff like netball carns.prelims.os.n all those retarded functions n days where we jus pop into class.sleep or crap thru lessons.attempt to chase jun outta class during recess fer what hurr. n stuffs like tt.checkin e classtray even haha-its gonna b great tml. fer us. all we need is a place to leave our butts. some ice cream -yummy- n our mouths. i think thats enough fer us to spend one splendid night together.oh yes. lets not forget the cam haha-rendevouz in bout 12 hrs :D-

its been quite an interesting first half of e week.lookin forward to a packed w parties next half haha.now its time fer chem again.time check:1.49am..nights.

还剩下些什么
只剩下两滴冰冻的泪水
一滴化斗酒添一分自醉
一滴沉落于岁月的潮水
还留下些什么
只留下两颗冰冻的眼泪
一颗化顽石拒绝伤悲
一颗化决心静候轮回..

n i love you too.
xin

2005-06-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

ive just marinated 50+ chicken wings n stuffed them into the fridge. pip tml. hope everythin goes smoothly n we all have a whacking fun time!oh well.with max n xinling in charge.tell me how can we not have a fun time haha.and hope my wings can contribute to e dinner spread haha: D -lookin forward-

anyway my muggin plans have died officially : p haii. -ooh.happybirthdaytecktee- its twelve.wonder how it will feel like to be 18.nvm ill noe next yr.after a levels. after grad ngt maybe haha. oh which reminds me!me n fellow baika r ics fer gradngt2005!!yayy yayy yayy. haha. im looking forward really. cox its like.night to see everyone dressed up haha. n they will haf a night to remember becos we made it happen haha. ok.soundsimpt.at least we've played a part in it la haha. n mayb we get a chance at food tasting too : D yayy.hungrypoks like me are like dat.haha hope we get a nice date. n also get a nice location. then everyone will b happy. ok im abit incoherent. but i can imagine our seniors in gowns haha.n tuxs mayb : D

anyway.i better go knock myself out now.had quite a fruitless day thou : p nvmm. sleep first zai xiang.nights darl.

n i love u too.
xin

我能感觉
我像只麋鹿奔驰思念的深夜
停在你心岸啜饮失眠的湖水
苦苦想你习惯不睡
为躲开寂寞的狩猎
我的感觉
像小说忽然写到结局那一页
我不愿承认缘份已肠思枯竭
逼迫自己时光倒回
要美梦永远远离心碎
我抱着你我吻着你
我笑着流泪
我不懂回忆能如此真切
你又在我的眼眶决堤淹水
爱不是离别可以抹灭
我除了你我除了疯
我没有后悔
我一哭全世界为我落泪
在冷得没有你的孤绝
我闭上双眼用泪去感觉你的包围...
somethin really meaningful.

2005-05-31T23:14:00.000+08:00

heyy darls. shall blog in on my WHOLE surgical procedure today since well. its been three days since my toe got stitched and started to heal..

friday.2.45 pm finally got out of the century's most exciting lesson. rushed down to council rm cox i was told to by charmaine haha. *note that i can still rush at this time* n my-oh-my what a surprise was waiting fer me haha.ok it wasnt veh surprising. but its definitely touching. n so sweet i think all the ants are crowding outside council rm now :D anyway. i think jun, kangya, wes, guanghao and a few others were there.. i cant really rem now..stm haha.but they handed me a card, a sunflower and a HUGE HUGGLY SQUISHY turtle!!!im positively in love with it. yes i dun swoon over toys but im now. haha. love it.so after some odd fototaking.and some even odder singing.which sounded like. i was going somewhere faraway.both literal n metaphorically :p. i left my file in locker n headed off.oh not to forget. shawn thought it was my birthday cox of the spread haha:D thank u 25ths. thank u all darls.fer mummying me caring fer me. sticking with me n hanging with me haha.i just love u all. fer everythin :D

3.45pm reached SGH clinic H fer ortho outpatient. took a queue no. realised its about five million miles away from the current no. n went to sleep.no joke. i fell asleep : p when i woke up. went in to see e doc. who. like every other doc/nurse/ahma/assistant/surgeon i saw that day. was utterly amazed at my ability to drag an open injury fer like 5 months. n when i told them it was cox i had to dance.n dance.ndance. their jaws dropped.no joke.it did. haha. concluded i had an imense pain threshold..

ok i give up writing time cox i realise i lost track of it myself as time wore on.patience wore on.n worry heightened : p anyway. clinic h dint wanto lemme do it that day cox they dint have operating theatre (ot) there. so i de-registered myself at the docs suggestion and transfered myself downstairs to the a&e. took temp. went to the triage nurse. she asked. on a scale of ten. whats the pain u feel now. i was like. urm5? n she said wahh. infection till likdat still five haha. oh did i mention e scales really interesting cox it has faces to correspond to every no. n the face on no. 10 was like.clearly being tortured haha.

anyway. within a&e i got transfered from one doc to another.all say the same thing.do the same thing.wear double glove. prod prod. n then transfer me. AGAIN. haha. anyway. after alot of walkin from rm dunno what to rm dunno what to rm dunno what. finally got to the surgeon.

n after another long wait, alot of explanation. finally got onto the operating table *i make it sound oh so exciting* i shall skip all e details cox its really late now. update again in another entry. haha : p

anyway. after op. i could no longer walk. lost alot of bld fer that kind of op. n well. i was feeling really odd. cox my toe was like one big baluku haha. n not much feeling.limped alot. i think im getting used to limping. which is nt good. n im barred from dancing fer like dunno how long : ( im going to get damn rusty haha.

ok... i gave an overview of what happend to me on friday haha. but its already tues now... batch meeting tml. gotta wake up early. rather. earl-IER haha. compared to these few days. sleep like pig. haha. nights world. nights darl.nights toe.

结束不是我要的结果
却成了彼此唯一的出口
当城市烟火叫人坠落
那个紧紧把你抱住的人应该是我
结束不是我要的结果
感情却在拉扯中失控
当街边的车催你放手
那个等在车窗里的人已不是我

n i love u too
xin.

2005-05-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

i had to make this a separate entry fer fear that the ppl im sendin this out to wun actually reach this before falling asleep. so yea. its 19 may haha.

zhunian.darl.i cant thank you enough fer taking care of me.fer praying fer me.fer worryin fer me.fer dancing with me.fer being so similar in thinkin as me.fer goign thru tough times n good ones with me.fer standin rgt there-both in person n in spirit-ive spent so much time with u over e past months..from syf prac in jan all e way up to dance ngt performances.i hope it never ends.ill reply that letter real soon.n i must thank u fer being the perfcet partner fer kitaro.all that i could ever ask fer.thats u.whenever we run into the position..the smile just comes naturally.somehow.it feels so much better.the style n expressions are so much better when im dancin with u haha.duet rem!i can smile just thinking bout it.thats e part of the dance that i like best.n i believe its u n solely u who made the difference.to better n funner times ahead.love u.ill b hangin with u darlin fated.

angie.sisters.soulmates.dancers.thanks fer being there.u made me cry.n ill always love u.thanks fer loving me.need i say more-

se.always there.to bring smiles into the darkest hour.to go mad with.to be my se.n to yell se whenever u see me haha.miss hot.ill b there.loveu.

char vizanne kang2 yvonne qing yingsha ximeng anita rach.thank u all fer giving me so many memories.fer teaching me so much.fer sticking with me thru all e weird hours.cheers to a great yr ahead.n i hope u dance.

dezhi.thanks fer e flowers.milobar.100plus.phonecalls.msgs.thanks fer being such a great support.fer listening to me n telling me everythin will b just fine.fer just being there.just being you.sometimes it just the constants that matter.thanks fer being just that.and yes.at e end of e day.i hoped u liked it becos i was.after all.dancing fer u.u held it up fer me.u were there fer me.i wouldn forget.becos.i promised.besides.some things just dun hafto b said.xiang zhi xiang xi.

daryl.i dunno what id do wo u.its really so much easier with u around.ur constant support throughout the four performances -by default : D- made a whole lot of difference.to know that someone in e audience matters so much to me made every dance more meaningful.more expressive.and ur bouquet just made char n vizanne so jealous haha n made this whole stretch of performances so much sweeter.i see now u were saving e best fer e last.or mayb u were just making sure e performance was up to par to warrant ur bouquet haha.either way.thanks.fer telling me to tahan.to ren.to hang on.fer telling me u will catch me if i got flung outta e window.or if i flung myself out : p fer spending so much time with me when i know u had so many better things to do.-i cant fathom how u think u can be a better buddy : p- fer helping me thru the darkest darkest times.even fer sharing the locker.thanks even.sadistic as it may sound.fer the heartache.everythin else ill write in e book.i really hope u liked e performances.becos without u seeing me thru.i wouldn have been on stage.becos you're irreplaceable.

n i love u too
-xin

2005-05-19T18:18:00.000+08:00

its been two weeks.pretty much rollercoasterish.seemingly more downs than ups.but everytime its an up.its always e ultimate high..it been so much pain.so much torture.but all these.every single sweat tear n pain -if its ever quantifiable- was all worth it.if u'd ask me if id do it all over again.i will.rotten toe n injured foot n all those tough times.id take e whole package wholesale.n still find it.110% worth it.n why so.becos i love dance.i love to dance.n even more so.i wanto show everyone who bought tics the best performance.wanted to give my best for everyone who supported me.for everyone who loves to dance n watch dance.

dancengt was three days of adrenaline rush.was the ultimate high.if i were to rank..fri n sat night were peaks. thurs was quite good fer an opening.n matinee was just ok..honestly. i could feel myself smiling.the expressions coming in.everythin seemed to fall into place on fri n sat ngt.to quote hongyue.fri's expressions n style was intriguin : D i dun think anything that i write here now -considerin its one week late : p- would be able to sum up how i felt..

all the days when we stayed till goodness knows what time.all e worrying.all e cooping up in pac to wait fer rehearsals. to rehearse.to panic.the zou tai.the sound check..everythin seems like yesterday.the times when we had to rush to change from one costume to another.esp when in charge of kitaro makeup.n the absolute rush to get se outta latin costume n into kitaro costume.to change her makeup n hair n everythin fer her.n even more so fer zhunian.to help her out in the changing room.to try to wipe away the OIL based makeup fer gym -eeeeeks haha- n apply our powder based gold ones. to help eveyrone secure their sashes to make sure it doesn drop when they jump.n then to sneak outta the stage doors during the tap performance to run thru the whole thing once in the stairway cox i had no time whatsoever before that to prac : p those were pretty kancheong moments.. n of course to warm up my mouth to smile properly haha.was so much more afraid fer kitaro than miao.cox miao was like e ultimate liao.i know it inside out haha.all these are memories ill carry with me..

morover, another major player in this dancengt was my toe n injured foot.sometimes i wonder why i put myself thru all this..the pain during practices, and the pain after runnin offstage.the foot just trembles on it own.n of course. the toe is all red n swollen.can hardly walk.need to like tape it up after performance.but i dun wanto tape it fer the dance cox somehow it affects my jumps. n im not goign to risk that at all.i guess if theres anythin.at least finish the dance n get offstage.i remed how after i fell at pac one day before performance i really wished i could just die there.things seemed to b falling apart.but the one plus hour call with u helped loads..took my mind off the pain n suay-ness at e veh least..its not easy.

anyway heres a huge huge thank you to all u darlings who came down to watch n support.fer all the beautiful flowers notes chocs hugs and photos haha.to rach n jiang.thanks fer ur bouquet!to leeehui.my darl lab partner.i loved ur flowers.to shiyun n umin.the cards in my wallet!to limin.i absolutely enjoy squishin the penguin.to classmates who came down.xie xie xie xie xie xie!to 25ths thanks fer everythin!

special shoutouts will come in my next entry.but i really hoped everyone loved the dances.i hope we showed u e meaning of dancing.n i hope.it was a performnce to rem.becos it is fer me.n it is so.becos of u all.thanks once more..

2005-05-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

heyy..what an odd time to blog.thurs isnt a typical blogging day fer me..but just had e impulse to do so..guess theres just some things i really wanto say.but never ever got the chance to.so ill just write it all out.mayb not all but still.nvm.

been really really busy with dancengt n invesdance this week.did choreo n stuff n hopefully the item will turn out nice. just like im pretty confident e song would haha.well done honloong n kwan fer composing.anyway.im pretty worried fer e dance..abit. scared..i just really dun wan ppl to fall asleep on us.dun wan ppl to say our dance is like damn boring or something..ugh.worry just envelopes me whenever i think of dance.then theres drilling to do.'our tone n direction is all wrong'quote kwan.we need more energy n sharpness n accuracy.now we've only gotten e skeleton.enough fer some.but far far away fer e front rows..honestly i applaude all of our spirit n ability.but reality check says.. we r still below par. nvm. with our spirit.we can do anythin : D i hope we prove me rgt. i just really really really wan it to go really well.

ok. inves dance aside.theres dancengt.ahh.hope all e ppl whom i really wan them to come can come...and hope it goes well..n i love e kitaro costume. looks damn nice. totally in love with e pants haha. those who watch will get to see its premiere : D ill b dancin fer you.

i tried to let u go.but then i couldnt.i tried to let me go. but then i couldn.so in e end.i still held on.n mayb it doesn matter anymore.i just dun know.i dun even know what im writing here.somethin ill regret when i read back?i hope not.but really.it doesn matter.least to u.

to you.yao hao hao zhao gu zi ji ok.a promise's a promise and ill b there.n besides till i find a way to shut my ears. ill b there to listen to everythin. yes i promise e talking session. soon as time is available k..yao xue hui fang shou.na de qi.jiu bu neng bu fang xia ok..even if it means losing somethin u thought was integral.but just like u think u mean nothin to someone.u should noe u mean e world to someone else.u dun actually have e right to hurt urself.becos ur life isnt just urs.i think u know what im saying.xin you ling xi k.no matter what.rem to turn this way ok.you r as happy as u wan urself to be..

ponders.

陪你渡过春天
陪你渡过秋天
陪你直到冬天
却怕与你没法一起蜕变
若然开始
怎样可免悲剧上演

n i love u too.
xin

2005-04-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

he is everythin u want he is everythin u need he says all the rgt things at exactly the rgt times...
this entry. is so untimely.yet so timely.to eli terence tecktee.i know u all did beautifully.thats my confidence in u all. really. whatever that came out doesn actually matter.as long as u had no regrets whatsoever.no matter what happens.this is still a milestone.u will prolly rem e sweat n tears n late nights n all. but rem. the bittersweet joy that comes with e end of syf...

it makes no difference if u put in ur all n someone else doesn rgt.everyone will die together.it so painful now.oh so painful. pretty torturous.jus not fun.im suffering from fatigue. i think so at least.chronic.

to you.when nothin seems to work anymore.theres always someone. 相知相惜yupp. i hope u read this.really.sometimes.its just e constants in life that matter.take care of urself n the sorethroat k.

stuff fer thought.i wonder myself.

如果我们只能拥有短短的缘分
给我一个忘记悲伤最好的理由
看著我答应我
如果还有相遇时候
你要记得牵过我的手

becos i heard u playing fer me.

n i love u too
xin

2005-04-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

to start.congrats to all 25th fer getting thru.we got thru together! :D prolly e strongest bond that binds us together.is when life is like a piece of shit n we still look on e bright side of it :D n thank u 24ths fer making this so memorable.pe will b freaky with e whistle till we recover from phobia haha. n of course i must really thank my buddy fer providing the food fer comfort during those dunno-what-times suppers.n fer supporting me during times of urm. sweaty palms n knees.even thou i doubt daryl will read this.but still.xie xie!i doubt i could have survived with such a happy mind without ur mindless banter.n of course to my felow bai-ka. n everyone who has been taking care of us.thanks so much.one survive.all survive :Done suffer.all suffer.

ok.shant elaborate on e camp too much.fingers too tired.n ive got too many other things to say too...

u know.i really dun wanto burden u anymore.i know u arent having it easy at all;u have so much on hand.a major event coming up.stuff to settle.n it has become so clear now.that u havent actually moved on.u havent actually healed.but somehow.whenever i talk to u.u tear me up so much.so much that i cant hold back.n i cant hide anythin from u.u always seem to see thru me.which pretty much explains why u tear me up.but then when u do.why dun u pick up e pieces n fit them together.it hurts when its left hangin dun u see.or mayb.u never thought this way.never saw this way.im not blaming u.im only blaming myself for being so useless.for being so weak.for actually thinking of letting u hold it up.n then i suddenly realise.that what i actually had was nothing.

i dun wanto hold u up anymore.burden u anymore.im so so sorry.ive only realised how selfish i was.how i never thought about what u were feeling.or going thru.i dunno what i would have done without u.yet.i know ive pulled u down so much.promises never come easy..but it doesn mean i wont keep mine.a promise's a promise.

its a new week ahead.but some things never change.ill be there.no matter what.
angie. no matter what u do.i hope u never regret.n ill always second u.

n i love u too.
xin

2005-04-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

shoutouts-
angie! i dun think i need to say anythin.just.ilu.n well done darl.
zhunian! star dancer n my dance partner.hehh.we've a long way ahead together.really look forward to hiding in drains w u : D i love u too.
se! even thou im not really ur se -winks- but still. ill always love u.see how nice i am.welldone!
kang2! ur mistake was obviously not an obvious mistake.zuo de hao!
eunice! thanks fer being the senior who keeps sending me blank msgs haha.super back.
charmaine! its so fun to haf u in class n cca together.well done mountain girl
vizanne! i imagined a mirror in e last pose on e flr n saw ur face.n smiled.xiexieni oh!

to shiyun youmin rach lehui mel daph limin lydia clara eli serene chinghui hongyue chrissie yengling terence anrong nengyang evelyn xinqin wanjun n everyone at e rg table n class whom i missed. thanks fer all the smses n calls.u kept me going! julio owes me treatss.im sorry i missed calls n replied late.but im so in love with u all.xie le!

i miss u when im sad
i miss u when im frustrated
i miss u when im stressed
i miss u when im injured
but i miss u most-
when im smilin n happy.
n u are not here..

cong cong xiang shi.ye suan you yuan le.zhi bu guo...

2005-04-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

whats it like to get somethin u so wanted.
esp when no one thinks u can do it.-even u dun think so-
ans- a mad rush of adrenaline laughter tears n blabbering
we've had so many 7day prac weeks.
we've had so much heartache.happy as it seemed. the emotional n physical stress was immense. really immense.
but we've shown them what we've got.from totally nothin.to somethin even guo jia yi ji choreographer from china said was really good.like lao shi keeps saying. im really touched by the team. at least wo men zuo dao mei ge ren dou mei xiang dao wo men neng zuo de.imso so proud of everyone.esp laoshi.ur choreography is so so good.
its somethin i can smile in my sleep thinking bout. i went home with a perpetual smile that my fam thought i was nuts.but u cant take my happiness away.u cant take away the pride.becos its ours.irreplacably ours.it means so much more to say that its our best in 21 yrs.best ever.tis is really a statement to make.

i realised i talk alot of rubbish in e above para. n my previous entry too. my life has been taken up by dance n syf. taken up by stress n hardwork n pain.but its all so worth it.becos u allare all there to slog it out with me. n we won. syf central judging gold with honours.thats rjchidance.thats us :D

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-04-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

syf is tml. im absolutely freaked out.ok.its not like i have never been into competitive dancing before.as a matter of fact most of my dances ARE competitive n all. but im just so freaked.our dance is gold stuff.i know it. we just need to get into miao persona.which is e hard part.tell urself u r it.u r the miao tribe.who lvoes nature.we've worked so hard.all e long pracs.pulled muscles. sprained ankles.blueblackedknees.e bleeding toe.everythin.i just really dun wan our hard work to go to waste.i dun wanto give anyhtin less than my best tml.n i dun wanto get anythin less than e best too.ugh.whoevers up there.heres a collective plea from rjchidance.pls give us what it takes to do better.shine brighter.smile wider.n above all else.to b wu yuan wu hui.

im sorry if the above blabber dint make sense. but what ive just said is that im worried for syf. n i hope we do well. as in like. really well. we've worked hard.ive like no life cox of pracs.n i guess.at e end of the day.behind all e complainin. i dun mind. becos i love what im doin-dance-.just. pls. make it all worth it.

n thank you all who have supported me so so faithfully throughout these two weeks.hell weeks. for dance for council for school.i really dunno which drain i would have fell into if u dint pull me up.

tmls e big day.no matter how much we luagh at ourselves looking retarded in e costume+hat, i know we wil shine tml.three cheers to our kampung spirited team.ive learnt to love u all. so much.

xie xie ni yi zhi zai wo shen bian fen dan.suo you de suo you.

-illdanceformyself.formyteam.forlaoshinherbf.formdmong.for403.for3p.
foryou-

n i love u too.
-xin-

dance to remember

2005-04-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

im a drug addict.what kinda life is that!who lives off painkillers hurr.WHO.oh man.World Health Organisation should take care of me.ugh.lousy pun.but really.this is so sickening.i cant even walk properly now. it hurts.and its like.ive even devised a new way to walk to make it less painful.ok rang wo cong tou kai shi.

yesterday went to docs because my mum decided if i still dun do somethin bout it it will b gangrene n ill hafta chop it off.so i guaily went.n guess what.e doc wanted to strangle me n i wanted to strangle him at e end of e day.i went in. he asked whats wrong with u?i went uhhhhhhhh.trauma to my toe?so he looked down at it n i could see his face contort into a look of alarm.sorta like when he looks at his WW2 POW fotos or somethin : p n he was went " this is very very bad!its swelling really badly!!!" n then he asked.so how long has this been goign on. n i said 2 plus months. n his eyes expanded to at least twice e usual size. im serious. im veh sure he did. his look of disbelief at my pain threshold n my stupidity was like writen all over his face.my self worth just plummeted.i dunno whether he respected me fer my immense pain threshold.or he thought i was mad. either way it does matter rgt.

anyway.it took him abt 3 secs to recover from e initial shock.then he drew my toe on my card.those kind of pri sch art lesson toe la.then he said "ok i shall give u three anaesthetic jabs.one at each nerve leading to the toe n one more at the peak of e swell.then ill shave off ( remove) ur nail from this area onwards n then do a dressing.i believe u will b out fer at least 2 weeks fer complete recovery." then he looked at me n looked at e examining table n waited.n waited.nwaited.basically he was askign me to get on so he can get it over n done with.then when i realised he was not just describing what to do.he was decribing what he was going to do. i said.in e firmest n most no joke way.'no cannot'at that moment i was pretty certain he was gogin to strangle me n throw me outta e window.who in e world refutes ur doc n refuses to do what e doc wants u to do rgt. i think i was like.a milestone :p then when he realise he couldn queeze me to death -cox it was murder- nor throw me outta e window -cox i was too fat- he stared at me through slit eyes n went. im giving u painkillers now.n make sure u eat them. n eat them faithfully. no pe or whatever shit fer e rest of the recovery.basically.u shall not move.

that was pretty much e end. i was like near tears from him prodding my toe not-veh-gently n he was near tears from meeting a delinquent like me or soemthin haha. n guess what. i still went fer pe. n will haf dance fer the rest of e week.weekends included. oh well. what can i say.

my toe shall heal.if i say that five million times.mayb it jus mgt. till then. i shall stay addicted n rely on my threshold.oh n thanks fer saying u dun mind pickin up a call from a wreck.yayy.

n i love u too.
xin

-其实我想哭偏不会洒眼泪

2005-03-31T21:52:00.000+08:00

'it takes zebrafish 3 hours from 8-11 in e day with e lights on to mate.and then it takes 3 minutes fer deposition of e eggs n fertilisation.n then the eggs are filtered thru a tea strainer n thne kept.it takes 3 days fer it to transit from singel cell to a vertebrae model.n u feed e fishes 3 meals a day. flake feed fer breakfast n then brine shrimp in super high salt conc fer lunch n dinner.'

haha. some interestgin facts i gained from imcb attachment.its really quite fun these three days. gotta haf e nicest n spaless pracs of this year n know alota funky ppl haha.josh n subhi n munyong from rj.manda danwei wangrui from rg.my funny lab partner bryan from acsi n his friends who were mugging pressure/hydraulics/updraft.poo n denise n e guy who went with us fer lunch at matrix/moe today -sory forgot his name : p-from acjc colin from vj who was my benchmate shuan n rongyao n co. from fmss who shared their hilarious school song : D.ok this r e ones that ive been spending most of my time with during imcb these 2 days.sry couldnt get to know everyone.the benches separated us : p shall blog more on the whole imcb thing next time. too tooo dead now. but its really veh fun. e things we do can b repetitive but stil quite fun.im blessed to b with so many fun ppl. n overall. its one good experience.complete with ALL e boliao logic games we played haha.

anyway. even thou attachments super fun.ive been going back to sch eveyrday fer dance.its exhausting.n my that toe.its not just not healing. its becoming worse.ugh.n then ot not hurt it so much-becos now every position its in it hurts-i put alot of strain on my ankle n heel.so injured both.HENFAN.hate my rgt leg.hatemyself: p i wanto spill blood!-serene dun laugh o.0-

okkk. shall blog in more nexttime.miss u all 3p!n i think ill b going down to marina tml.clarice n rg bowling better b royalely gan dong hhaa.and.i miss sleep.nights world.

n i love u too.
xin

我有说话未曾讲你这刹那在何方

2005-03-27T18:56:00.000+08:00

a rainy cloudy day today.somewhat my favorite weather.really. my favorite favorite feel.its veh nice.i just really like e whole gan jue.sometimes i dunno whether im head or heart.haha.i just love the feel of rainy days.cloudy windy rainy.i dun even know what im saying actually: p just that i love the rain.hence today is a happy day.haha.wuliao.

anyway.comin weeks really hectic.so i doubt i can blog in at all. haf imcb from wed to fri.hope its fun: D -hope dezhis rgt bout imcb-then theres dance on mon tues wed thurs n sat.n then theres interview tml.n dance ngt auditions on wed.i wonder how i can fly around fer these few days.just hope everything turns out fine fine fine.pls just let it go myway.

jun thanks so much.missinu.n rest assured no one takes ur place.cheers.daphy yi qie yu guo tian qing le.chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.angie darl.take this wk easy k.dun hurt ur toes haha.zhunian!haha.my dance partner.dunno whether u will see this.but anyway.wear green more!: D youmin.will always water add fertiliser to u ok.dun fret.turn around n wo hui zai na li.

dinner beckons.i just hope everythin will fall into place.nice n fine.
但放得下不等于忘得了

n i love u too.
xin

2005-03-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

can someone tell me how to heal
-runny nose
-sore throat
-watery eyes
-bruises everywhere
-INJUREDTOE
-gastric

i wonder. i really do.why sosuay.but comapred to some im like nothin.oh well. im sneezing at the rate of one per 30 secs.no joke.someone misses me like mad.someone called GERMS.all rgts. shall go sch tml.i wonder why again.
congrats to those who got in. good luck to all appealing.
n break a leg dezhi.i know u can do it.i haf confidence in u man.

nights.
n ilove u too.
xin

只想要问心无愧~

2005-03-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

heyy:D im bloggin in like finally. it seems like a wink actually. i sorta expected myself to blog in like super frequently since its e hols n we r all supposed to b.well.friggin free.but -n on e other hand- this is not the case n ive been wakin super early everyday. n runnig around like a mad chicken everyday-pokpok- n not resting.not taking care.not enjoying.i feel like ive been absolutely ripped of my hols :p -n thats not fun. sniiiiffffs.n on top of that i hafta spend hols feelin like im going to fall sick anytime.-or haf i already- n the stupid idiotic friggin toe of mine is not healing.n not recovering.i wanto zhuang qiang.my toes r like how impt to me n i really really cant afford to have one injured toe on top of all e bruises n whatever liao lorr.ugh.just please heal it.please.

anyway. ive e sluggish sickish pokish feeling rgt now.predict ill fall sick aft all.aft all my struggle to not fall sick.now i havta fight with illness.bleahhh : p ok lets just hope i dun.thou i do admit i could do with a few days of lyin in bed at home. oh no.whats this. im hoping i fall sick!-faints-

okok.shall stop acting like some kancheong person haha.urmm.
angie.thanks so so much.sometimes.i dunno what ill do wo you.n yess im wearin slippers becos i cant bear to make u nag at me.ill attempt to keep at it fer as long as possible k.n spread ur happiness arnd haha.love u.

some things just never change.your daily msg which is really un-creative but nonetheless veh welcomed makes things better.its good to know theres always someone dere.someone who so willingly give n care.

i need CRIB- figure tt out mann.- its a med lingo ahha.i think we all need it actually.

enjoy whats left of march hols.haha.hols im sure.HOLS.-laughs hysterically- : D

n i love u too.
-xin

一起误会妒忌
一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己
一起找到意义

2005-03-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

往事不要再提人生已多风雨
纵然记忆抹不去爱与恨都还在心里
真的要断了过去让明天好好继续
你就不要再苦苦追问我的消息

爱情它是个难题让人目眩神迷
忘了痛或许可以忘了你却太不容易
你不曾真的离去你始终在我心里
我对你仍有爱意我对自己无能为力

因为我仍有梦依然将你放在我心中
总是容易被往事打动总是为了你心痛
因为你岁月中我无意的柔情万种
不要问我是否再相逢不要问我是否言不由衷

为何你不懂(别说我不懂)
只要有爱就有痛(有爱就有痛)
有一天你会知道
人生没有我并不会不同(没有你会不同)
人生已经太匆匆我好害怕总是泪眼朦胧
忘了我就没有痛将往事留在风中
忘了我就没有痛
(忘了你也没有用)
将往事留在风中

a really nice song.-dang ai yi cheng wang shi. ru guo zhen de yi shi wang shi.wei he hai xiang qi ni.
lisa today was funn funn funn :D
love u darls.
xie xie ni shuo bu yao fang qi.
love u.xin.

2005-03-13T19:51:00.000+08:00

i dont even know what im feeling.some things shuold just really be left unspoken.its not your fault really.so dun apologise.its hard to say.it really is.
what am i saying.i dun really know.mayb im just lying to myself to make you feel better.but does it really matter.maybe it doesnt anymore.
words dont come easily anymore.i think so much more before i say anythin.and it hurts doesnt it.someone so close.yet ultimately out of reach.or rather.i would say.i locked u out myself.id rather not reach you since i know it wouldn work out.cox somewhere deep inside.id rather it not.
dumb.so dumb.wun you let me go.esp when i let myself go.
i wanto be irrational for once.just let me.why does my head make decisions.when my heart hurts.isnt it better if i just heck and couldn be bothered.even if the sky fall. ill stil heck.but no it doesn work that way.ill always think think n think.

thanks fer listening to me.
xie xie ni yi zhi zai wo shen bian.i dunno what i would haf done without u.really.
min ill post it tml.n congrats wenli.happy fer u.

n i love u.
xin

2005-03-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl.todays a real muggable day. good weather good env haha.did a whole day of phy n math tys..hope they help fer the tests..shucks.-jitters- haha.anyway.this weeks the result week. rgt? i think so... time passes so quickly.i can very clearly rem how freaked out i waas on mon. esp aft pang black-faced me haha. seems like there was some misunderstandin ni facial expression.she either thought i had so much confidence in myself i dint need hints form her. or i dunno what. haha. i thought i really wan wan le.in actual fact i dint... : D thank heavens.now its time to live life out in rj: D

anyway.. wanna take this chance to say a lil somethin to some special ppl haha.i hardly get serious. so mayb nows time fer some serious thank yous..

thank u shiyun fer sharin all mytimes with me.fer being retarded together.fer trusting n loving all e walks along e corridor.all e no recess de recess.everymoment ill rem..

thank u angie fer bein hyped yet deeply thoughtful.fer going heyhey in every conver.wo yi jing xi guai ni de cun zai.fer sharin everythin u feel.fer loving..

thank u youmin.fer being my tree.fer complaining n listenin to me complain.fer forcing me to eat-i rem e ham n cheese bread tt u cant fathom why i think its big : D-fer bein so originally u..

thank u dezhi.i dun even noe if i spelt it correct.but it doesn matter.i guess u noe as much as i do how much u mean.thanks fer e advice.thanks fer sharing. rem. i always keep my promises

thank u rachlover fer bein such a support.e ultimate cheerleader.n a source of security.becos i know. it wil b fine when u r there.n of course.fer bein my partner in crime..

thank u yings. fer whining.i dunno whether ill get used to no u whinin everyday.but i jus wan u to know.no matter what decisions u make.ill always b behind u.n i forgot.thanks fer being my motivation to do math : p

thank u jun.theres nothin i wanto tell u more than say thank u fer understandin how i feel.fer giving me e uniquely jun huggs.those that squeeze breath outta me.xie xie ni ai wo.

thank u trier.fer faithfully callin me xink when most 403 ppl interchange haha.thank u fer bringing so much life n fire into my life.

thank u daph. fer saying i know when to say e rgt things.n fer knowing ill b there.it makes life more beautiful fer both of us.

thank u 403. i love u all to bits.u taught me loads.u made me love u so much.i never wanna let go. some things wun change.i love u all.every single one.n as a class.

thank u terence. fer being my pillar yupp.n u should jus stop whinin mann. haha.stay u.ur gifts still on my hand.

thank u phuxion.
thank u 3p. im lookin forward to lotsa fun times together.hope we'll stick closer yupp: D

as matter of fact. i wanto thank everyone whos stepped into my life. its u who haf made me who i am.bu guan ming tian fa shen shen me shi wo ye bu hui fang qi ni.

n i love u too
-xin

2005-03-02T19:08:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl.wed entry fer once.becos umin reflected tt my weekly entries too far apart.haha.oh well.welllll.anyway.today chi dance went to kallang to zou tai : D quite a nice experience even thou we all ended with yet more injuries all over e place.not just injuries la.we now haf blisters : p n my toe hurt so much it was shivering at pulses on its own.n i decided to try e pressure technique. ie. i used four plasters n BOUNDED them as tightly as possible to e toe. to press e pain down literally. thank u xiuwen fer being my plaster nanny : D lao shi sorta passed us on stage so we dinthafta go back to cont syf. but we went back anyway fer dance night. choreoed abit here n there. pieces r coming n we hope they fit : D oh yes. n angie n nianzu got in -hurray- angie. shuo guo ni yi ding xing! :D haha. anywayy theres chem test tml so id better get going. dun wanna flopp. haha dance tml will b drillin : p looks like hafta da qi jing shen n do full out -quote lao shi- haha
ok will get going now.

n i love u too.
xin-

-如有雨洒求再洒洒红棉盛放墓边开花...

2005-02-26T19:55:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl. its yet another weeek.zhen de hen kuai yea...results on mon. i guess e rest should just be jin zai bu yan zhong. aft all -n at end of e day- everythings been decided n our results haf been sitting inside there fer like. weeks? i dunno. but yaa. its al been decided. prolly on e veh day we walked out n celebrated e end of os haha.but heyy. ji ran yi cheng ding ju. then shui yuan bahh... ok.. i know my whole chunk of words here veh chi... haha. just finished readin a chi book so pretty influenced haha.well wel. hope everyone does well. -n i mean well in their own standards of course- to those who aim to get onto newspapers to share their success stories. zhu ni men hao yun
to those who aim to get straight a1s. zhu ni men hao yun
to those who aim to get 6 pts. zhu ni men hao yun
to those who aim straight as. zhu ni men hao yun
to those who aim to stay wherever they r. zhu ni men hao yun.
to everyone. good luck.

somehow this few days. eveyrthin revolves round os n mon n singpass n such mandatories. oh well. yi qie zhong jiu hui gui yu ping jing.
on sat.. i like to throw chunks words. but my entry's so long liao... nvm. still put it in. happy decipherin.n apologies fer my low chi standards...

n i love you too.

春雨绵绵寒彻骨
风起却无蝶相伴
曾诺红尘两相随
而今却剩碎心梦
望穿秋水无明月
只闻桥头独萧鸣

2005-02-19T13:03:00.000+08:00

heyy.this weeks been rather xiong haha.but heyy.its sat again.my only otherwise sane day haha. just registered fer the imcb thingy.feelin veh sick n hence skippin e srp test later.besides its pretty pointless fer me to go so i wun feel any pangs of regret.zui zhong yao shi bu yao hou hui : D

been VEH happy this few days.-rather fri n thurs- cox it rained fer like one hour each day.just absolutely love rain.i love e sound e smell e feel e temp e presence.i love it.totally. haha : D jus realised i sound like some siao person croonin over rain haha. anyway. hope it cont to rain bigtime fer e rest of the month n fer e mths to come too hahah.

so many things happened in e past week.course there was vday n prac n work n bowlin fer columbine n band concert.n lots more.lots lots more..i suppose shou de yun kai jian yue yuan rgt haha.

shall leave another chunk of chi words here. happy deciphering dears - change encoding to unicode-

无言到面前
与君分杯水
清中有浓意
流出心底醉
不论冤或缘
默说蝴蝶梦
还你此生此世
今世前世
双双飞过万世千生去

n i love u too
-xin

2005-02-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

heyy deers. i think theres a few ppl going thru a real rough patch now.-u dunno what u want.u dunno who u r.u dun really noe. what u r suppsoed to know- oh well.i hope it wil be ok.. i do hope so.

一切随风而去
要拿得起就要放得下
就算心如刀割—
也随缘
有些事冥冥中己有安排
宁愿世人负我
也不负世人—
默读伤悲

tts all i can say.i know it hurts.but rather than putting on a plaster n hopin it wil heal.when u know it wil never recover completely. why not let it air. feel e pain. cry out loud. n when it heals. u r a brand new person. liu an hua ming you yi chun... leave it to fate. leave it all to fate.

to u.we r all worried fer u.and we all care.we all do.
to tecktee n shoulders.good luck.
to everyone else.happy new yr. happy vday.

-i hope u dance-
n i love u too.
xin

2005-02-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

heyy.i wanna use this time.-whilst too lost in you is playing : D-to thank you.
thank you fer standing by
thank you fer staying by
fer saying i could just let go n cry. because u will be there to hold it up
fer sharing shoulders n tears alike.
u said i should lean on u
n its ok to let go.
you r my pillar of support
n i really wanna say how much i appreciate u.
thank you pok.
thank u jie meis
thank u onemoment.
thank u 3pca phuxion.

ill go on because i haf all of u.becos u haf taught me so much.

n i love u too
-xin

2005-02-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

hey ppl. had early dismissal form dance prac today haha. eeehah. :D anyway... im sitting here now trying to dress tt thing called a toe n count at e same time. dun ask me count wat haha. today was pretty ok laa. had pe early in e morn. which was pretty much just watching them do... i benched coz of the stupid toee.

after tt had a nice wholesome breakfast : D n 2 lectures came aft tt.. n well. one math quiz i think. yaa. after tt we had a veh fun n exciting pca session.char hongyue julio yuxuan n me.it was a veh educational seesion haha : D we learnt alot of stuff. veh fruitful.

me n char went to dance prac aft that just to find out tt laoshi not coming today.. so we just praced e dance 6 times n zaoed.. went ot j8 with her n attempted ot walk arnd haha. attempt becos we had no idea who's bday is coming.so duno how to buy.. i saw my jacky cheung concert aggain. ARGHHHH. i want it i want it i want it.. -chantttts- i really want want want. haii.

ok. i shant whine n moan n groan over his concert. sighh. haha. anyway... g2g nows.. my heads starting to float.tml haf monster prac again... hope we will progress more haha. : D nights everyone..

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-01-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

heyy.im dying.my toes a mess.i haf like given up on it totally. i ddunno what to make of it.i dunno whether to wrap it up or leave it to dry n heal.i dunno. i really dun.n it hurts like CRAzee.n my elbow has a blue black. i haf no idea how tt happened.oh well. anyway..enuff bout this rubbish.theres nothin i can do besides dress it. to make my suffer less n happier...i bought garfield plasters to paste haha. : D this is e epitome of ku zhong zuo le if not i also dunno howss..

anyway.no lectures today..pretty ok la..did a mini gp essay after cv n had bio prac.e prac was hilarious.to start with. im sure everyone had so much fun staring at their eyelashes.n when u stare n find the sample finally it somehow always HAPPENS to disappear into nothingness.argggh.n then we had to do refocusin ..things just leapt in n out of focus.i suppose i had a better time cox e microscope was pretty kind to me today n dint play tricks on me.i could see what i wanted to see. n alot of grime n gross bacteria or whatever which i didnt really fancy looking at haha :D but tts fine. at least i finished it proper haha.had an even more hilarious chem tutorial aft tt.it was so absolutely funny haha : D it was more like teaseee.n we just kept luaghin thru e lesson.

anyway aft tt went fer lunch then library with wanlin eexiu n minli to wait fer shiyun haha met wantian there n we started to yak n yak n well yak. even old friends like liyong came up in our conver haha.-i do wonder why-. n then i met daph n so we talked n somehow i left my pencil case with her haha so im going to get it from her on mon haha. no choice mahh. thank u daph.love u :D

went to thomson plaza. oh. b4 tt. horrors n tragedy-quoted- did i mention i ddint bring my wallet ot sch?? so absolutely intelligient thing to do rgt. my gosh. iw anted to knock my head on e wall lor. what a dumb thing to do. aft i took my moneyy yester i happily fell asleep on my wallet n forgot to take it this morn. argh. stupid spastic thing to do.okok.shall stop complainin.anyway. me n shiyun just talked n talked n talked from rj to thomson n kfc n popular n ntuc haha.just kept on yakking : Ddidnt get to buy what i set out to but tts ok haha i managed to get a pen n some stuff n most imptly. i got those garfield plasters! --yay--clapp clapp clapp.it noe it sounds super dumb. but i cant help but think its a positive side to hurting urself haha. ok this so crap.

oh did i mention i saw chinghui playing badminton at concourse haha : D he sure has unlim energy. - ok this is veh random haha jus thought of it-

im listening to a whole series of beautiful sad songs. haha it kinda fits my state now.these songs soothe u.they really do haha. weekends here liao :D hope eveyrone gets a good well deserved rest haha. nights.

n i love u too.
-xin

2005-01-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

heyy ppl. jus came back from dance prac n bathed n ate.i missed out harmoc concert ugh.sry tecktee.sorry sorryphuxion..anyways.on a lighter brighter note. i got into syf! haha.so did angie n char n dennetn kang kang. to think bout it.its like e first time im dancing w angie on the same team. like. Finally.we nv get to dance on e same team.this time finally. we will haha : D anyway. besides a chicken lookin step which is super taxin on the calf muscles n require coordination, the other 2 8s we learnt today were quite cool haha. quite nice. even the chicken step looks nice on laoshi la. but what doesnt look nice on her anyway rgt--ok..just hope tt ill do ok there n not looklike some fat gross blob haha.i realise the more u dance chi dance. theres a wei dao tts veh diff from other dances..but yet so similar.. its like... ben3 shi4 yi1 jia1 haha

anwyay. im tryin to nurse my toe n blog at the same time. but both requires the usage of hands so theres some mix up happening here. my toe looks damn gross.
really GROSS. so gross. i dun think anyone wants to see it lest they puke their lunch/dinner/gastric juices out.n my toe is like 1.5 times original size? i cant fit rgt into my shoes n my socks get stained with pus n blood everyday haha.shant describe it anymore lest u all start pukin jus by visualising haha...: D e biggest prob is i haf dance prac 3 days in a row. which is not a veh good thing considering e fact tt e toe nv gets to heal e way its being slammed on the flr everyday.

k..i think i should go slp now to like.i dunno let my toe recover haha.doesn seem to make sense.. haha i ve been super incoherent fer e past few hours. yawn.

nights deers.
love u all.
-xin

2005-01-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

hey ppl : D someone called luahyoumin just tagged to complain tt im abit lousy in keeping my blog. SORREh laa. dui bu qi haha. at least u were kind enuff to tag la k.anyway.today was pretty ok.cv became hodge talk.then 2 lectures. gp where we had ms loh who went on n on like motormouth.shes got humor.cynnical sense at least.-just whats with britney in like 2 ponytails- haha.

anyway.went fer rifle tryouts today too so funn.oh n i went to courts just to find iggy trying out fer vball.good luck. haaha letss see. pretty shagged. went home aft tt. not before buying groceries at the ntuc outside my house.did i mentions theres this indian lady who went ot the cashier n asked the price of EVERY item. n she isnt blind. cox she points to the pricetag n ask how much is this. ARGGGh. n she even asked the cashier is this insecticide good not. she took SO long just to pay up lorr. i wanted to die. its not veh exciting when u haf to stand there. stop urself from sleepin in public n listen to her crap all at one time.its a VEH diff thing as a matter of fact.

yawn.msnin with my og ppl n shi n angie n co al at the same time. its taxing on poor brains of mine.haha.anyway.og outing tml.thanks to my cousin deciding tt he wanna get married this wekend. i cant go. like THANK you. ugh. but anyway. wedding shi xi shi mah haha. ok. shall forgive him then. at least ill be joinin dinner -so ahQ but nvm-haha. okok. i better stop this verbal diarrhea. but did i mention how much i HATE pills. not the anti-drug pill. but pill pill. anyway.i still forced it down. literally. its gross.eww.

nights everyone..
and i love u too : D
xin-

2005-01-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

heyy everyone.sat night now. i wonder what im doing here. bro hogging the tv watching chelsea vs totemham.chelsea's up 1-0. anywya. this is pretty outta pt. haha. been a long week this week. doubt ill do any summary of the week hhaha. mayb ill mention abit bout yester cox today was basically boring. but contentedly boring..-if u get me-

anyway. yester's SCH was saddening. we had cv in which we played pictionary where chingwern absolutely wowed us with his knowledge bout pi.haha. then aft tt shiyun n youmin came to look fer me in class n we crapped the hours away. basically counting down till 12 when we can run oiut haha.ok then met up with e other vballers n went down to rg.

anyway. we cheonged to rg fer lunch la haha. cox we big time miss the high standard canteen food there haha. had curry rice plus chicken wing plus meatball. yummy. then had non diluted milo. which is veh unusual fer me cox i hardly ever drink milo from sch ahha.went to visit laoshi.who was as funny as he always was.. met n crapped with clarice n the juniors. sent them up the bus. met mdm thern n ms pang.. haha. then went shopping with shiyun. i still cant find those GREEN SHOES. ARGhhh. ok. basically it was so pekk tt by e time we were almost thru whole of orchard shi was jus pointing out green things.i think we were both abit touchy bout the color green liao haha.:D anyway thanks shiyun fer going thru this with me haah.went to orchard mrt to meet my og n shiyun was meeting hers. found rilong n mark i think... yaa. my og guys were howling over some girl in the photo album of teck tee's..i haf no idea whats so extremely funny thou haha.

adjourned to nooch at paragon fer dinner. another super funny night haha. in e first place the guys were laughing over the menu.all the weird thai n jap names. there was some shake don or something haha.food was pretty good. aft awhile we got pretty bored waiting fer jeremy n ofelia n anrong so we played zhong ji mi ma. n george really didnt lose. -like he claimed haha-teck tee n woo had ot down a portion of the gross laxative they concrted out of coke lime chilli soy sauce soybean n dunno what.haha : D.n they insisted that dried chilli was onions i haf no idea whyhhaha.

went to take neoprints when the rest came n basically that ended our day. of course there was alvin who got veh impressed by the game the machine lets u play while they were printin the shots haha. yupp.

anyway. love u wenli..thank u fer loving me.
n yes. i miss u too.

xinn. -rang yi qie shui feng-

2005-01-11T20:44:00.000+08:00

hi everyone : D its tues today..ok not like my entry doesnt say rgt on top. tuesday.hahah.nvm. anyway today was a super super slack day. there was only like what. one lecture at 11.so went in the morning just fer like assembly dilly dally abit here n there n went up to class. where to my absolute amusement i saw chingwern doing his chem tutorial la :D that was eye opener. exactly whose brain is on at 8am anyways.so with him as an immense motivation the rest of the class ended up doing chem tutorial too haha.charmaine n clara had some friends from hc coming over so they went down after awhile to go pick them up haha. then lydia limin puisan wanlin n me went ot wander around our sch n chekc out the campus. whihc seriously needed some major checking out cox its huge haha. went to the labs n staffrooms n the library. library looked like E place fer whiling away time haha.

yupp. we went back to class aft photocopyin some stuffs n attempted to cont chem tutorial. tt is. with the exception of me coz i loaned my tutorial out ot eddison. lets see. oh we went down fer food supposedly but i ended up meeting the 403 ppl fer some major catching up session n discussions. veh intellectual ones as a mater of fact haaha. rgt geri. rgt cheen.

n finally aft a super duper energy wasting wait it was math lecture.plus a math tutorial which ill choose a nice time later to start. -did i mention finish?- haha.

its huan's birthday today.n yupp im a prettu pok cousin to forget n need angie to remind haha. thanks dear : D anyways. happy birthday huan..

met an old friend aft sch in geri's og. like OLD friend haha. since the pri sch days.2 as a matter of fact haha

shall sign off now.tis is totally verbal diarrhea.oh i did say kungfuhustle is quite cute? just watched it haha. nights everyone. n i love u.

2005-01-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

heys ppl.. im trying hard to fix my blog but as apparent my bars on the right are like totally screwed up. anyways will just try to fix it or seomthin.

anyways. just came back from hospital n dinner.feeling strangely contented haha. today was really topsy turvy came back from yenglings house n actually didnt sleep haha. basically had lunch n watched some concert which was really good cox they were like rasing funds fer the tsunami victims n every star was dere to sing so yupp. very watchable there haha. attempted to slp after that but couldn cox i was feelin too full haha.then went to hospital to visit my aunt's mum who is like pretty sick la..but on the other hand she looks pretty ok too..i mean like..healthy haha.ok mayb not healthy but not vah sick.ah whatever.

ok.yester went fer stayover at yenglings house with some og ppl.it was really fun.as in like fer once we broke the gender divide n were laughing all thru the night over nothin in particular.like FINALLY.haha.tecktee had to run cox there was some miscomm w his parents n layming didnt stay yupp.but we went over to her house n started to talk crap. like really in n out crap.still couldn hear e whole anrong story haha.but oh well.hes a happy man.

anyways it wwas rainin when layming left so we like sent her down.or rather i did la haha.then we found a cab after liek 5 mins n she was like MUST msg me when u get back k.haha. she made it sound so kong bu that when i was making my way up i could felt damn freaked haha.played cards n stuff when i got back n then bathed...george was damn funny. i think he said something like terence do u wanna bathe or something haha. which got all of us in yet another bout of major laughter haha.basically we were like all laughing n laughing thru the whole night.laughed about eating a banana choco mousse cake at 5am.laughed about drinking vitagen.laughed about picitoinary.which we like played fer the whoel night haha.we just laughed n laughed n laughed. xingjuan sounds liek shes having fits. kaihee n me n yengling vibrate like mad.george doesnt get it most of the time.terence sounds like he is crying n anrong is like hee.heee. woo sounds like hyenna. haha.

ok.. feeling abit tireed now. shall go bathe n see howss. haha.why do i suddenly miss u.why is it only when i choose to give up tt ill miss u.n i love you too.

nights everyone.tc.hope phuxion stays alive.hope 1s03p will be fun. i have a feelin it wil haha.

2005-01-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

im just trying

2005-01-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

happy new yr everyone : D. im one day late. but nonetheless its still the correct yr. so anyway. my blog's alive -waves-. except im not sure how long this temporary revival wil last.n i must thank shiyun fer making me revive it. : D pretty yawny rgt now. goodnights..